Ni's Little Solace
Not sure why I am creating this thread exactly, and I'm doing this so late at night as well :') I just felt... like I should do this haha. I do have a one line a day thread although I... don't think I have felt so free over there to write as much as I wished. So I thought maybe... I should just make another thread, a diary perhaps.. where I can really be myself.. and maybe post pictures and quotes, literary quotes maybe... and poems.. specifically haiku hehe. Also vents.. thoughts and maybe letters :')
Replies are welcome as well <3 although please remember to stay respectful and kind.
*sending lots of love and hugs because why not*
(she’s not my bio sister lol)
She asked me why i’m awake at like 3 am :') :')
i think im triggered but im just trying to be ok
@LoveMyMoonflowers *sits with you* Let's take some deep breaths together ok? Do you know what triggered you?
@mytwistedsoul
idk just a lot of things at once
@LoveMyMoonflowers im just tired and want to sleep but somehow i’m scared
now i’m crying crap
rhats great
@LoveMyMoonflowers *hugs you tight* Hey it's ok to cry. I know a lot of us hate to cry but it's kind of like a relief valve. When things build up too much it needs an outlet and crying is a better way then some of the other ways we might use
@mytwistedsoul it’s so dumb when i cry though :(
@LoveMyMoonflowers There's a lot going on for you 😞 and you try so hard to be there for your friends and you worry about them and for them. You're a beautiful person Moon. Can you ground yourself?
5 things you can see, 4 things you can touch, 3 things you can hear, 2 things you can smell, and 1 thing you can taste
@mytwistedsoul
i not beautiful but thanks friend. im not good at anything can’t be there for people when they need
um i can see my screen, my blanket, my pillow, my bed, the curtains the ac, i can touch my screen, blanket, pillow, bed, i can hear…. the ac, myself breathe, that’s kinda it though :(
idk about smell and taste 😔
@LoveMyMoonflowers i can taste my tears but that jus weird
@LoveMyMoonflowers You did good 💙 But you are beautiful Moon. Beauty isn't just looks or smarts. It's heart and soul. It's kindness and love. Those are all beautiful things that make up you. Sometimes it's necessary to take care of you first and then others. Especially when you're struggling with your own things
Sometimes I think some people forget that we're going through our own storms and as much as we'd like to and as hard as we try to be there for them - we just can't . It's hard not to take on others emotions especially when you have alot of empathy. You hurt for others as much as you have your own pain. Here we can only do so much
i wan cry
and sleep
why do i have to think about this again
it’s so dumb im just so dumb it all came back a few days ago and now it just all i think about
@LoveMyMoonflowers It does seem to work that way I'm afraid. Once it pops into our minds it stays - like an unwelcome house guest. Things like that keep coming back because it's unresolved 💙
@mytwistedsoul
yeah :(
ni ni remember stuff that happened stuff that mom told me and wondering if it true if it true it just so scary it hurt so bad i’m just thinking about it too much
@LoveMyMoonflowers I'm sorry those scary thoughts are stuck in your head 😞 I know they're hard to have. I'm sorry you're hurting so much right now. Since she told you about it - Would you be able to talk to her about it?
@mytwistedsoul
idk :( don’t wanna sound stupid and start cry
@LoveMyMoonflowers
crying
@LoveMyMoonflowers *hugs you tight* Let it out ok? I don't think you would sound stupid. And I think she would understand your tears 💙
@mytwistedsoul
idk….. idk idk idk
@LoveMyMoonflowers i think i’m gonna go and just cry and try to fall asleep if i don’t then i just don’t care if i do some thing dumb to self
thank you friend, but i’m gonna go, be safe
@LoveMyMoonflowers it's ok you don't need to decide right now 💙 maybe it would help you to write her a letter - you don't have to give it to her - you could tear it up and throw it away if you want but it would also help you get it out alittle
@mytwistedsoul
if anything il try to write one to.. mm….. person who did did tried
mm
idk
im sorry
stupid me
it hurts so bad it just hurt so bad
why
why
i don’t want to think i don’t even want a brain my stupid brain