Ni's Little Solace
Not sure why I am creating this thread exactly, and I'm doing this so late at night as well :') I just felt... like I should do this haha. I do have a one line a day thread although I... don't think I have felt so free over there to write as much as I wished. So I thought maybe... I should just make another thread, a diary perhaps.. where I can really be myself.. and maybe post pictures and quotes, literary quotes maybe... and poems.. specifically haiku hehe. Also vents.. thoughts and maybe letters :')
Replies are welcome as well <3 although please remember to stay respectful and kind.
*sending lots of love and hugs because why not*
someone just referred me in SR 😶
@LoveMyMoonflowers those people are rude then smh how dare they do that to my ni
@Swiftygirl13
it’s fine 💜
@darkerplaces @swiftygirl13 @hardworkinghuman4356Â
hi. 💜
i just want to say thank you for being so vvv sweet and supportive and kind in SR earlier. 💙 i appreciate you all being so caring. 💜 you made me smile and laugh a lot even though i’m not so okay and i’m really grateful to you for that. 💙 I know life is messy and crazy and tough but i’m proud of you all for making it this far and for shining so much light and helping others along the way. 💜 me appreciate you.Â
it’s just, i really am giving up, i think. i try to be okay. but it’s not working. nothing is working. i’m almost done i think… 💙
@LoveMyMoonflowers.Â
@LoveMyMoonflowers i know life is messy and crazy for you too, but please extend the same care and concern for us, to you too <3 youve made it this far too, your so strong, i love you (/p) i know what its like to be tired. please just take it one day at a time. fight. every single day (please). if not for yourself, than for me, rome, swifty, and everyone else who loves you so dearly on cups. i know you might feel its hard to stay alive even with people who care about you, but please just try. as someone i admire once said (i dont remember it exactly) "stay alive today. we'll rethink tomorrow when tomorrow becomes today."
Not sure what ‘reaching out’ means anymore.Â
Reading this over and over made me laugh (':Â
Ni is not okay at all 🙂Â
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Nii 🌙😟 me is here rooting for you 🌙🥧 hang in there, have you eaten some meals?Â
@VictoriaLove7
yes i ate something a few hours ago, rainbow bear. 🌈🧸 did you nom something too? :oÂ
@LoveMyMoonflowers
me ate too earlier, Nii 🌙☺ How are you feeling now? 🌙😟
@VictoriaLove7
i’m fine… rainbow bear. it’s fine 💜
I think I’m going insane.
I am insane.Â
@LoveMyMoonflowers Hey you :) what has you thinking this way?Â
Um - I had to laugh alittle because I see others using Moon Pie 😊
@mytwistedsoul
idk soul buddy (': i spent a long time in the teenie support room today talking about giving up and burdening my teenie buddies like crazy. i can’t think today. i can’t do anything today. or ever.Â
i’m just giving up slowly tbh… 🩵
how’s you? (': i’m sorry that was a bit of a crazy rant. i hope your being gentle with yourself buddy. 💜
and yes moon pie is one of my favourite nicknames now :PÂ
@LoveMyMoonflowers hey im sorry, i hope im not butting in to your conversation, but i hope you know that you werent burdening us, at least not me, and i highly doubt others feel that way 💛 i hope this helps you, sorry if it doesntÂ
@hardworkingHuman4356
sending hugs if okay <3<3
@LoveMyMoonflowers thank you for the hugs :)
@LoveMyMoonflowers Maybe today can just be a self care day? From what I understand and am told - it's ok to have days where we don't do anything. We don't have to be productive all the time
@mytwistedsoul
soul buddy being their awesome self 💙 thank you for being there. i appreciate you more than you know 💜 sending hugs if okay 🫂Â
tbh idk if i can talk about it. i’m not sure. i’m confused. everything is confusing. i think it’s like what i said in my most recent forum… it’s not that i can’t keep going i feel like i don’t want to anymore. idek if there’s a difference 🤪 none of that made sense now did it? 😶 lol.Â
nu D: if you dug a hole and let it swallow you up i wouldn’t be okay with that (': pretty sure many others wouldn’t be okay with that either. 💙 me not sure what i would do without soul buddy. 💜 sending more hugs if okay
@LoveMyMoonflowers *sends big hugs back* It's ok. I mean you're always welcome to share with me but I'll never pressure you either. I'll never judge anything you say 💙 But it can be uncomfortable sharing certain things in the open too
I do understand that feeling. It's like - you just get tired of the constant fight. Every day. I mean you can fight of course but sometimes it feels like what's the use or what's the point if we have to keep doing the same thing over and over only to get the same results. I think that's probably the definition of insanity 🤪
I like to think we keep fighting because there's a spark of hope in us. It keeps us going. It keeps us in the fight. One day things will change and they will get better. Sheer determination will see that it does
The world would miss you Moon Pie. I would miss you 💙
@mytwistedsoul
(': idk tbh. 💜
Im fine.Â
@LoveMyMoonflowers It's all a dumpster fire right now isn't it? 💙
@mytwistedsoul
couldn’t have explained it better. that cracked me up. 💙
@LoveMyMoonflowers Just speaking from my own experience 😅 I'm fine - it's fine - we're all fine... wait why are there flames? Oh...they seem to be getting bigger 😅 well this can't be good 🥳
@mytwistedsoul
lmao. 🤣 that’s so true tbh. your explanation of insanity was so accurate too (':Â
@LoveMyMoonflowers I'm often asking myself - why am I doing all this again? Going through all the BS and dealing with the pain and heartache that's life and the answer I get is - spite. Because people want to see me fail - I've gotta prove them wrong. No matter how tired I get 💙
@LoveMyMoonflowers I hope it didn't bother you that I mentioned dumpster fires in Bunny's space. I'm sorry if it did. Sometimes my fingers speak before my brain catches up with common senseÂ
@mytwistedsoul
no no no that’s okay 💙 it’s completely okay. bunny bean sees my diary forum too 💜 no worries. 🌈
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