Ni's Little Solace
Not sure why I am creating this thread exactly, and I'm doing this so late at night as well :') I just felt... like I should do this haha. I do have a one line a day thread although I... don't think I have felt so free over there to write as much as I wished. So I thought maybe... I should just make another thread, a diary perhaps.. where I can really be myself.. and maybe post pictures and quotes, literary quotes maybe... and poems.. specifically haiku hehe. Also vents.. thoughts and maybe letters :')
Replies are welcome as well <3 although please remember to stay respectful and kind.
*sending lots of love and hugs because why not*
It's vv late right now but I can't really sleep. Sleep is nice.. it's.. like an escape sometimes.. I can have my warm blanket with me and my soft pillow.. but somehow I don't want to sleep now. I'm.. scared. I'm scared it'll all come back to me. It will all flood back in.. the thoughts.. And the idea of a nice restful sleep would turn into the reality of my restless thoughts.. and then I'd remember.. all that.. stuff..
I feel like crying already. But like before I just can't seem to cry. I don't seem to have any tears left. And the funny thing is.. when I *do* really have tears welling up, and when I actually feel overwhelmed I.. just push it down.. and swallow it.. it just hurts more then :')
Or maybe I just dk what I'm talking about :D
Silly ni..
That all sounded so silly 😭😭😭
Whaaaaatttt 😭😭
@LoveMyMoonflowers It sounds like we do the same thing. You swallow that lump in your throat and blink hard. Crying never helped anyway :/ so you tuck the hurt away inside - away from everyone because you know it doesn't change anything
@mytwistedsoul
Hello friend 💕
Yes it sounds like we struggle with the same thing 🥺 and yeah I’ve had that awful lump feeling countless times.
I don’t really have that many nightmares.. it’s more of the crazy thoughts that swirl in my mind when I’m in bed.
Listening to music can help yeah but sometimes it reminds me of things. It usually just helps me think and not really sleep :(
Thank you 💕 *sends hugs if it’s ok*
@LoveMyMoonflowers Hey :) aww you're welcome. I'm sorry you struggle with it too. It's hard keeping everything to yourself all the time or feeling like you have to
@mytwistedsoul
I've tried guided mediation, yeah 💕 it can be quite relaxing honestly. Thanks for reminding me about that 💜 I think I will try doing more of those now. It would definitely help.
Thank you for these thoughtful little messages friend it means a lot to me 💕 and I appreciate you so much. I hope you are taking care of yourself as well.
@LoveMyMoonflowers That's great! I'm glad they can help 🙂
Nuuu it's fuzzy :(
@LoveMyMoonflowers
It's still legible a bit, it is okie, Nii..
@VictoriaLove7
💕🤗
@LoveMyMoonflowers
🤗 🌙
I’m…
meh.
@LoveMyMoonflowers *sitting with Nii buddy* 💖
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
@LoveMyMoonflowers
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
that reminds me of a quote from ‘the chosen’ 💕 sometimes you just need a friend to sit with you in silence..
Ni doesn’t know how to explain anything right now. She’s tired. She’s… meh. But she still has her friends ❤️ and she hopes things will be better.
Also I love those dinos 😭😭 so cute. 😭
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Yusss, sometimes all we need is someone to sit with us as we let the raincloud pass! 💖
It's super okie to not know and not feel like explaining or sharing something at this time, Nii buddy, you're always allowed your pace and I'm so so proud of you for remembering you're not alone and for being hopeful for things getting better. *hugglesss* 🤗
Hehe I know right?! I love dinos too! 🥰
I don’t feel like doing anything right now
but I’ve got so much to do..
aghhh..
I think I’ll go check what I got on my math test 😭
im scared to look lol. I missed three questions but.. idk.
Yay 94% :D
yaaaahhooooo ~
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Wow on a math test that's totally awesome! Way to gooo, Nii buddy!🤗
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
*celebrates*
To tell the truth I hate math lol but I need good grades in math so my parents.. uh yeah. Math is v important to them lol.
Still happy i got 94% :)
@LoveMyMoonflowers
@grimsmark8
thanks Charlie ❤️
oh I love that gif *happy pikachu dannnceee*
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Aw I'm right there with you on Math lol (': this brain doesn't math-well alot either! xD
I get that Nii buddy and am so so proud of you too for scoring super well despite not being a fan of the subject. *celebratessss Nii buddy* 💖
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
yeah..
But just because our brains don’t do math that well doesn’t mean we are any less than those who do. It means we’re good at other things 💕 likeeeee ~ sun buddy ☀️ is super duper creative and make such beautiful graphics and heartwarming posttttss. Sun buddy’s always supportive and empathetic, always there for their buddies 🥹
it just gives me the *happies* every time I see you in forums 😭💕