Ni's Little Solace
Not sure why I am creating this thread exactly, and I'm doing this so late at night as well :') I just felt... like I should do this haha. I do have a one line a day thread although I... don't think I have felt so free over there to write as much as I wished. So I thought maybe... I should just make another thread, a diary perhaps.. where I can really be myself.. and maybe post pictures and quotes, literary quotes maybe... and poems.. specifically haiku hehe. Also vents.. thoughts and maybe letters :')
Replies are welcome as well <3 although please remember to stay respectful and kind.
*sending lots of love and hugs because why not*
@justmeeva
no it’s ok.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
okay.. but if you need me i’ll be in our wonderland alright? 💕
@justmeeva
okay friend.
*** they are fighting already.
:') welp
My brain: We should leave 😀
Me: I agree 😀
Also me: 🤔🤔🤔🤔
Me: 🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔🤔🧠💥
Me: okay what about a break 😀
My brain:…………..
the question is….. is there a difference between me and my brain? 🤔
i’m so stupid gosh 🤔
@LoveMyMoonflowers You're not stupid Moon 💙 I think the difference is our brains and our hearts. Our brains want to be all logical and our hearts are soft. Idk lol
Maybe take the weekend off? See how you feel on Monday? Then take it day to day. Come in when you want to - not when you feel you should? Idk maybe that doesn't make sense 🤪
@mytwistedsoul
Nah lol it makes a lot of sense. 💜 our brains want to do one thing, our hearts want to do something else. :')
Can I be honest lol T^T looking back at my goodbye post I’m now like… wow that was so impulsive of me lmao. :') I might just take a break from rooms like I did one time, a while ago.
@LoveMyMoonflowers I think we all have those impulsive moments. We can get so tired of the BS that's going on we just say - that's it I'm done - I quit! I know there's been times I've done that lol. Something hits the wrong day at the wrong time and I have an official f.t.s. moment
Has anyone tried to talk to any of the higher ups about the issues in the rooms?
@mytwistedsoul
yeah lol. :') i used to be much more impulsive lmao. hehe. and yeah some teenies have talked to the admins about it, a teenie and an admin hosted a session on kindness too - they discussed being kind in the rooms and things like that. 💜 but yeah nothing’s changed much after that. it’s pretty much the same. :')
@LoveMyMoonflowers Hey that shows growth though! That you used to be more impulsive and now it's not as bad. I used to be worse with it too but I'm learning to take a pause. It's still hard some days
Oh man - that really s*cks. They host a kindness discussion but it didn't help *smh* It shouldn't be that way at all. I mean - I know there's going to be disagreements now and again - differences in opinions but sometimes you just have to agree to disagree and move past it. It happens in the adult chats sometimes but mods come in and it stops - usually
The people starting and keeping the arguments are the ones who should take a break if they keep doing this
@mytwistedsoul
Hehe… growth :') I guess we do grow and get better, slowly. 💜 Tbh for me, I think I’m more impulsive when I let something build up if that makes sense? Idk. Like if I thought of doing something but never stopped to really think about it/ to sort it all out, and then when it gets too much, when I sort of get ‘triggered’ I go… boom…… that’s when i’m impulsive. Not sure if that made sense but yeah. :') lmao.
Yeah it’s not fun… the session was good, it was great - it was beautiful, the questions….. everything. how we got to interact with some ATLs and talk about how the teenie rooms need improvement, how we can be kinder to each other etc. i was mostly just lurking but yeah xD it was good. but yk….. what’s the point of all that :') when they don’t actively try to do something about it - idk, anything… something has to be done…. right?
Idk. 💙 anyways i’m ranting :') hru soul buddy? 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers I think it makes alot of sense. We're kind of like sponges. We take in and hold things and something happens - we take in alittle more. We can only absorb so much before we reach a point that we're full and it happens - we snap and the impulse is there and we follow it. The impulse complete - we start over again
@mytwistedsoul
It is. 💙 Thank you friend :') *big hugs for you if okay* no pressure to talk but i’m here if you need. 💜 i’m idk, okay i think but not okay at the same time? somewhere in between, maybe. it can be so complicated tbh :') how am i… a mystery lol.
@LoveMyMoonflowers *big hugs back* 💙 life is sort of like juggling I guess? You're going along thinking I got this - I got this. But somebody keeps tossing more at you to juggle. What was one thing became two things and three. Before you know it there's a dozen things you're trying to keep from hitting the ground and then all of a sudden - your nose itches! I'm not sure where I was going with this 😂 I can't juggle at all 😂 weird lol
It's ok not to know - just take it one moment at a time 💙
@mytwistedsoul
lol it’s okay, that made me smile 😛 but it does make sense. 💜 i don’t know how to juggle either. which makes even more sense now… i don’t know how to juggle, and life is like juggling :D
i don’t think we ever actually know 100% what we’re doing. we just breathe… and live… and learn. life happens so quickly. and so slowly. and it’s always throwing things at us. people throw things at us. :') welp. 💜
thank you friend 💜 i hope you’re trying to take it one moment at a time too. life is hard, isn’t it? :') 💜
@LoveMyMoonflowers I think a lot of it is that we weren't given the tools or we weren't taught how to handle things. I remember you said your parents aren't big on mental health issues. I'm betting emotions and how to handle them properly probably wasn't covered either? I was always told - you shouldn't feel that way 😕
I am doing my best with that. Currently in a squirrel state of mind lol 💙
@mytwistedsoul
Yeah. The way our parents raise us… if they even raise us. :') The things we are taught or not taught - it sticks with us. :') Idk how to handle emotions and lately I haven’t been doing it very healthily at all so :') hehe.
my parents don’t take mental health too seriously. if it’s someone outside of the family they might take it seriously. but no not with me and my brother. can’t talk about things. nope.
my mom gives people parenting advice on the phone. :')
lol, me too. 💙 #SoulSunAndMoonLoveSquirrels
@LoveMyMoonflowers To me it's understandable that you'd have trouble handling emotions. How could you know when it's almost a taboo subject. So we turn to unhealthy ways to handle them because unfortunately - it works. And if they're emotions we feel are bad - we're even harder on ourselves 😞
@mytwistedsoul
Yeah. :') it’s fine though… 💜
Hehe. Squirrels. Amazing how one tiny squirrel’s indecisiveness made you smile today, and brightened up me and Sun’s day with the squirrel conversation.🤭🤭 that squirrel doesn’t know of their impact 🤣
@LoveMyMoonflowers Well - it's not really that it's fine but what are you going to do? Parents think they know better 😞
Gosh you're right 😊💙 Everytime I see a squirrel - you'll both pop into my thoughts. I'm grateful for that little squirrel. I hope he/she has a good rest of the day 💙
@mytwistedsoul
yeah. :')
awwe 🥺 that’s so sweet lol, fr 💜 i hope that squirrel has a good day too. 💜
I talk a lot. Lmao.
@LoveMyMoonflowers
mhm, you rant, you talk to your friends, you comfort people, you help them, you give out hugs (they’re the best)… i think it’s something to be proud of 🩷
@justmeeva
huggies for you! 💙
@LoveMyMoonflowers
won’t ever refuse those 🥺🩷 *hugss*
@justmeeva
hehe. 💜
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@LoveMyMoonflowers
Nii 🌙🥧🤗 what does this cute T^T? ☺
@VictoriaLove7
wdym, rainbow bear? 😮
@LoveMyMoonflowers
me think this ' T^T ' looks cute ☺
@VictoriaLove7
it does!
:') i need to write something.
this morning my head had a bunch of new ideas but i didn't write ✨ anything ✨
@LoveMyMoonflowers
This is sooo relatable to be honest.🥲
I have like 3+ half-written/ thought of ideas and drafts for forumland! I dunno when will they see the light lol!🫠
I've realised I'm not good with drafting stuff xD like it's smooth-flowing when I just open the forums and start rambling instead.😂
What kinda topics did Niibean have in mind?👀
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
lmao sun isn’t it funny how I just logged on on my phone and boom, sunbuddybeanie’s reply. :P idk I just found that funny I came on just when you replied 🤣
felt, felt, felt. ni friend has lots of ideas for forums but almost never actually writes them lmao :') when i do make a new forum it’s just a bit random and not too planned, turns out meh to okiee lol. (that probably describes all my forum threads)
me sure whatever ideas sunbuddybeanie has are lovely 💜 your threads never fail to shine so much light around 🥺 *huggies*
ni friend was actually talking about ideas for poems lol 😛
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Smh xD glad the stars aligned for me to reply at the same time then hehe and yusss, funny when it's rather starry and coincidental. 😄
Aw you're too kind always, Niibeaaan, thank youu but huh? Meh to okieee?😮
Nuuu, your forum threads are super duper amazing, whether it be your sweet check in threads for your friends, comforting and kind reminder threads, threads where you share more kindness and helpful resources with the community, threads that are really fun and make people smilesiees and just threads where you express yourself and be youuu~ they are all vvv amazing and I'm always uber happy to come across any of them!🥰
*huggieees back*
You write such beautiful poems, that speak to one's heart directly, so I know whatever ideas you've thought about them are absolutely magical too and it's okie to take your time in penning them down.💖
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
*keeps huggie wuggie-ing sunbuddybeanie and melttttsssss* 🥺😭💙 i don’t have words lol
oh well. :')
*yeets self* 👏
@LoveMyMoonflowers
Yeets where?😮 Could I join please? I love to travel and for free? Always a yes!
Somewhere in space, because you are sooo spaciallll and totally out of this world ahmaazzingg!😛🥰
@Sunisshiningandsoareyou
hehe. Nibuddybean yeets self in not vvv kind way 😅 it’s okie though. :P
sunbuddybeanieeee, it always amazes me how you turn these little moments into moments so vv sweet, how you always use every chance to spread soo much kindness and sweetness around, always melting everyone smh.🥺😭 *hugs you if okay* you’re the most spacialll lol ✨ *kindly yeets both of us in our glitter-powered spaceship so we can travel the galaxies* 😛 okay that was weird of me please don’t hate me now lmao 🤣
