My thoughts (open to all) Trigger Warning
I have these thoughts in my head. Will they ever go away. Two years its been since I've cut. Can I make it another day? I can and I will I tell myself. I've been through worse before. I'll get over yesterday. I just can't share anymore. It all started when I said I wished things were different. I didn't mean it in a bad way. I just wanted to be closer. It made her sad and confused by what i had to say. I thought we wanted the same things. Turns out I didn't have a clue. Now to try and fix it. Too bad I don't know what to do. The urges are always with me. Mostly weak but now getting strong. I need to be punished for what I did wrong. It's been two years since I cut. Do I throw it all away?
@RedHawk6547 Hey :)
Just wanted to drop off alittle Christmas rattie. I hope you have a good holiday. I'm sending you good vibes and hugs ❤️
@mytwistedsoul
Love the pic. Hopefully the holidays are treating you well. Sending you good thoughts and a safe hug.
@RedHawk6547 Thank you :)
So when should I start to worry? My daughter is struggling with life right now. She wants a break from life. I don't think she is suicidal and she has said she's not. She doesn't want to live but isn't going to kill herself. I had hoped she would have it better than me. She has not been through the same trauma as me but she has experiences some. It was stupid of me to think I could protect her in this world.
@RedHawk6547 Hey you :) I'm sorry your daughter is struggling right now. There's been alot of changes in the world lately. There's so much pressure and so much new information being pushed on kids these days. I think it's really good that she talks openly with you. You did a great job raising her I think. Do you think it would help her to see someone? Maybe you could look into some self defense classes? It could build up her confidence and she would be able to defend herself. Maybe it could be something you do together?
@RedHawk6547 Just wanted to say hey :) it's been awhile. I hope things are ok in your world ❤️
@RedHawk6547 Hey you :) It's been awhile since you've been around. You pop Into my thoughts every so often and well - I know you had gotten a new job and I hope that's really going good for you. I hope things are ok with your daughter. I hope you're doing ok
Things were good for awhile. Always looking over my shoulder just waiting. Everything finally came crashing down.
What do you do when the one person you could talk to leaves? Its not their fault its just life. I tried so hard to believe that it would work out, that life would be okay now. She gave me hope and I feel lost now. I'm angry, sad, and frustrated that it ended like this.
@mytwistedsoul
Hey. It's been awhile. Hope things are settling down and sending you safe hugs. How are you?
@RedHawk6547 Hey you :) It's really nice to see you! It has been awhile
@mytwistedsoul
Hey, sorry its been so long. Things just seem to keep piling up. Sending good thoughts your way. How are you?
@RedHawk6547 It's nice to see you! I'm sorry to hear that things keep piling up but I do relate to that. Things have been difficult lately in my world but I'm hanging in there. Thank you for asking ❤️ sending you good vibes ❤️
Do you ever get tired of being wrong? Wrong that things will get better. Wrong that people really care. Wrong that you tried your best. Wrong that you can help others. I'm wrong so much of the time anymore, I want to be done
