Hey again
@SneakySnakeBoi @Jefferythebunny319
@Princetomyanxiety @BunnyLovesYou
Cups did something weird and it says I don't have permission to reply to the thread, and idk what to do so I just made a new one.
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@iamspoons
good idea
sorry having a rough week lol
@AvyIsKing
I just cried in latin class, and not because I was stressed.
Umm tw fictional death
We read a story about Pompeii and normally I'm unaffected when people die in books but we were translating out loud and I guess hearing it was worse, and also it was a mother and daughter and I had really liked Lucia. And Freddie died in my game last night too, and I am still missing sleep so, it was probably all those combined
Tw over
Omg, I asked my studyhall teacher if I could go up to guidance but when she called everybody was busy and just now she came to me. She was like they said Mrs A was busy, and I was like it's ok I just read a story and was sad. Cuz I did just read a story and I kinda wanted to keep crying and sorting stickers.
Ugh I also feel kinda sick, my throat feels kinda like tight I guess, but I really don't want to be sick. Tomorrow will be the first time I've gotten to celebrate my birthday in like 3 years. There was the virus year 2020 and we didn't know we would be quarantined that long so we thought we were going to wait it out, then idk what happened in 21 and 22, but in 23 I wanted to do an escape room but my ex (who I was still with at the time, but we were strained) texted a whole group chat in January like "do you guys want to go to an escape room with me" and so stole what I wanted to do, I had even talked to them about wanting to do one for my bday, and so when that failed I wanted to hang out with she who must not be named, and I just kept getting pushed off, and then she and E had broken up and it's been a lot about that since.
Sorry for the looong rant
Um I love you, I hope your week gets better.
@Iamspoons
thats ok! i hope u have a good celebration
TWWWW- cancer
my grandmas cancer is uh like in full force rn and we don't know how long she has left and i just found out yesterday and im scared lol
@Iamspoons
let me explain babygirl
okay so my friend from ohio and my tennessee friend (irl off cups) are in a server on disc, and my friend, we shall call them S and F. so S was on the server n was like hey im with *nickname for me* cause its their birthday, and one kid said 'oh its my moms birthday' and i said woah i didn't know i had a kid, and then things got really really complicated but
basically me (demisexual and demiromantic) and F (asexual and demiromantic) were in a 4 way relationship once, along with Dazai (my pfp) and Britney Spears and basically we had a son. then F kept saying she was down bad for me and things got real out of hand, and S and i were once married for about 30 minutes and then we got divorced, we were watching hamilton and i went to say i went to visit the house hamilton and eliza lived in after they were married and i said after we got married, so boom we were married and we whipped each other with fidget toys and then we got divorced. so anyway F is my Babygorl and S is my Stupid Ex Husband. xD
@AvyIsKing
Hey I just wanted to let you know that I love you and I'm sorry for not reaching out, I've just been going through "my friends don't really care and I can't focus on important things" phase rn, it *** sucks
I'm building my 2nd Lego flower set that I got 5 days ago. I made my first set the night before Valentine's Day. My thumbs are going to hurt.
Again ilysm, I'm sorry you're going through *** rn
@Iamspoons
iyt, and buddy im always here ok? ❤️❤️ i think i missed your birthday, sorry i had a raging stomach flu. Happy birthday buddy (:
@AvyIsKing
Long rant tw caps implied swearing cuz censor bleeps it. Period cramps
Ugh didn't even finish building, dad only got in the shower at 6:30 and my and mom have to leave at 8 (oh well it's 8:09 now fudge) and mom has to shower so like I didn't get a shower, so my hair is greasy and I smell overwhelmingly like mens deodorant thats going to stop working in less than a day and the can say 72 hours.
I'm collectively mom-ing everybody my mom is complaining that she feels like crap, and I sitting here smiling nodding saying that sucks I'm sorry, and trying not to yell at her that the only time I felt like that was getting really bad . cramps and I was at girl scout camp, the place where people should have sympathized with me, instead I was told "everyone in this room has cramps none of us have LIED ON THE FLOOR CRYING, you're just being dramatic" (I really hated that lady, but one week after I screamed at her, I came back in later and apologized to her because I'm the bigger *** person all the *** time) and the only thing the camp nurse could do was give me over the counter pain meds.
And mom is nagging me about rain gear because we're going up to Vermont with our girl scout troop, and Idk where my stuff is cuz idk if I have my own raincoat I've just been borrowing moms cuz I outgrew my old one. And her stomach is not feeling up for tuna, and I'm kinda upset because I kinda wanted a tuna sandwich, but no, I made her a PB sandwich. And I'm having ice cream cuz there's no cereal and I wanted cereal so we're *** compromising.
There's more but that's all for now
@Iamspoons
hugs if ok. That sounds like a lot ): doesn't sound fun.
I was supposed to come home from new Jersey today but yesterday my mom woke up and said ehhhh we are leaving at noon, get ready. So im home now.
@AvyIsKing
Hugs are always ok, sorry for the late reply we were in a car then had no Internet and then if I went on my phone I would look attached, so I'm in a sleeping bag rn and these mattresses are so weird.
We got to see lots of rivers, I want to just sit in the middle of one or walk through it with no shoes, but it's cold and public.
Ily gn
@Iamspoons
we had bad storms 🥺 i was in the basement
@AvyIsKing
Oh no, big storms are scary I hope everything is ok
I have my girl scout consoler in training in an hour and I am not prepared, ahhhhhhhh.
I have cramps, ugh
@Iamspoons
Loki
Also tell Nora
But
I reached
2nd base
Tonight 🥲
@AvyIsKing
Oh, is that's good or bad?
And I thought Nora could be on cups sneakily now? Cuz I have something I want to tell you but I want to surprise her.
@Iamspoons
is vvv good
you can tell me in pms 🤭🤭
@AvyIsKing
Are you excited for the eclipse? It's all everyone is talking about but we still have school but they're going to let us out early. We're pretty close to totaltally.
@Iamspoons
im going to a block party for it, im pretty sure that we are like idk 50% or something
@AvyIsKing
We just hung out in our front yard, we didn't get to see a lot because of clouds. How much did you see?
Today's being a really bad texture day, mostly sound texture but soap and the edges of plates for touch. Urrrg
@Iamspoons
We didn't see any 😭😭😭😭
@AvyIsKing
Urg I just got my third *** nose in 24 hours, the first two made it so I didn't get any sleep. Speaking of, I was laying my head on my desk in math and maybe shutting my eyes a little bit but I was listening and I already knew the premise of what he was teaching, and he kinda called me out, like sir I'm sorry I can't pay attention I feel like crap
@AvyIsKing
Due to me getting almost no sleep I have had no social battery, and I ran away from my sheltered friend K and my boy crazy friend N when they followed me in the lunch line and then this guy who has become friends with them showed up, btw his little sis is in our grade and she bullied me and nobody believed me till I retaliated. And I just had to ride home with E, the obnoxiously extroverted one, and I'm going to epac with her in like an hour. Gonna have to tell them all that my social battery is low and my patience is non existent, and if I walk off don't follow me.
But on a better note, I got to help the art teacher move stuff from their old storage closet upstairs to the one in the basement. The physical labor helped me be in a better mode and I was helpful and I knew the trick to the elevator ( you can't call it from upstairs so somebody has to go downstairs and go up in it, it's a vibe). And I get to skip pe tomorrow and help them again, woohoo no stupid reverse volleyball.
Ily I hope you had at least a manageable day.
@Iamspoons
reverse volleyball???
@AvyIsKing
Yea it's called nitro ball it sucks. did I already mention that I get to skip that today ? I'm very happy, but they might say no but I have a pass
@Iamspoons
sorry I havent been posting much. my life pretty much sucks, maybe ill post a big ol vent/rant/update here soon, idfk. but my friend from ohio is coming down tomorrow to visit, so that's exciting
@AvyIsKing
Yea I'm sorry back for waiting a week to respond.
How was your friend from Ohio?
I went to see hadestown last night and we didn't get back home till almost midnight, so I'm going to be feeling it during math. It was a really good musical it almost made me cry like multiple times but there were these ladies behind us that apparently didn't know how to speak to just themselves. They were so loud, luckily they didn't talk during the musical, just about how they saw themselves in the last song before intermission. Like analyze the songs on your ride back home. And one of them turned to the other and said 'he turned around' when he turned around and then all was silent, because this is a tragedy and we were warned. Also the songs were really good and a lot of them reminded me of "the ritual" song in stray gods (which are all really good songs, you should check them out), and I had other musical songs stuck in my head. It was really fun
Ilysm
@Iamspoons
it went okay, we had an amazing trip and we went to the aquarium and i got to feed stingrays which made me too freaking happy and we went swimming and we just hung out a lot and it was an awesome time <3
hadestown seems amazing, god i wish i lived closer to NY.
I've been feeling extremely lonely and needy and attention hungry these past few days. my friend from ohio is extremely affectionate and she gives me all the affection and attention i want, which i never get. my mom just isn't a hugger, she never was, she really doesn't like me touching her, never has really
i have band tomorrow, and then we have 1 more rehearsal before our concert which is super sad to me because im going to miss all my band friends. maybe ill text my friend and ask if i can have a hug on Friday. idk im feeling super super clingy
@AvyIsKing
Aquariums are so much fun, I'm glad you got to see stingrays
On no band is almost over, I'm sorry you won't get to see your friends from there anymore.
If you want I can hang out in the rainbow room with you. I can even have a 'sleepover'
@Iamspoons
ouuuu rainbow rooommmmm :0 i go there, can stay for a bit ehe
@AvyIsKing
Hey sorry I just disappeared, I got distracted. So it's ok that you had to leave too. I hope your blood sugar is back up and that you got some rest.
I don't have any rat pics tho, it won't work.
Ily
@Iamspoons
Im ok. Just tired.
I saw a hot guy at the mall and we kept making eye contact and he was hot and then me and my friend and sister went I the store he was in and we made him laugh and giggle then he left and we wentinto hot topic and he was in hot topic so my sister asked for his number for me and he said
Oh I have a girlfriend
I wanna know
Why tf he was staring at me then 😭😭he's really cute tooo
My sister says he looks too much like my most recent ex but like thats my type too
Maybe it's cause I was wearing a mini skirt
They make me euphoric for some strange strange reason
@AvyIsKing
Ok reading that was a ride, I was skimming that and saw "oh I have a girlfriend" and thought you were talking about yourself, nope the cute boy in the mall has a gf. Um speaking of seeing cute people in public, there were so many cute people at the theater like ahhhh.
Yea I have to go eat dinner
@AvyIsKing
Omg have I ranted about stray gods yet on here. I don't think so, so I'm going to now.
It's on the switch and I won't say too much rn in case you want to play it.
But Orpheus' voice is so dyiuyduidtdisth, it's just so good and his talking is so playful and just jsudydhdhd ahhhhhh. And he's only in one song. "I have the floor, it is mine after all" so cheeky.
And Hermes is trans, uses they/them and has a afab va. I love them so much
@AvyIsKing
I feel like I haven't told you I love you enough lately
I love you 💖
I may take awhile to respond to forum posts but i will always respond to DM's asap
@Iamspoons
I love you toooo ❤️❤️ sorry i was like in a crisis and busy, i got a drs appointment in a few! More stuff later
@iamspoons
Oki Oki life updates TvT
i have a band concert next friday for, which we have 6 pieces and like half an hour of playing time so that's nice!/hj ill also never see some of my friends again after that day and im real sad and scared
the theater camp i do every year changed the ages to 5-8th grade, so i cannot participate but the lady said i can go assist and be stage manager so that's super fun! we also have 2 summer camps this year (:
some kids kept telling me i look 12 and called me an ugly rat and it triggered my TW eating disorder even worse. i was doing so good and at my last jazz concert some little girl was like "are you heavy" and i said "i dunno, heavy is a relative term am i?" and she said "yeah ur heavier than josh, he's so skinny and well you are...." and i said "what makes josh light and me heavy" and she said "family" so i was confused but felt terrible about myself. I've lost 7 pounds since then (: i asked my mom if i was pretty and she said "some of us can be pretty and some of us can be smart. what makes the world beautiful is we are all different" so no i am not pretty
i was in a crisis for 3 days because i was just so sick of being in pain.
i went to the dr yesterday for my knee and i did tear something but it healed naturally (forget what it was) like he was like oh yeah ur symptoms match its no biggie dw about it. and then i found out i have a patellar tracking disorder, basically instead of my knee cap going up it goes up and way to the right. i start physical therapy today for it.
im so mad at my mom. i don't get to make my own choices regarding my health. i have to have major reconstructive surgery this summer and then soon id have to get the other leg done, and id very much rather get them done at the same time, bing bang boom done. but shes like you'd be non weight bearing and i cant pick you up.... i could do it myself. but shes like oh no you cant do that, that's not what i want you to do. its my body, my choice. i might just put surgery off until im 18 then
@AvyIsKing
Yikes
Sorry I fell off the map for almost a week, life started pissing me off, had a huge argument with my mom about my brother and about my girl scout gold award. All better now.
I have a super special event with clay on Friday and I get to miss a whole day of school, yay, but my ex is there, less yay, but I'm completely over them (at least that's what I'm telling myself).
Um yeah, I dyed my hair again, woo. I am a bit absolutely done with K, but struggling to not just tell her to f off.
Ilysm (look at Levi, he's cosplaying Nico)