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Iamspoons June 17th, 2023

@SneakySnakeBoi @Jefferythebunny319

@Princetomyanxiety @BunnyLovesYou

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AvyIsKing October 15th, 2023

@Iamspoons

Warning long post coming 

So I had my date yesterday right here's how it went 

So we went to *** and walked around while we waited for my dad to show up and introduce himself and the mall to open, we goofed around and talked about running and shoes and stuff. Then he met my dad and he was very nice and very respectful and my dad was pleased. Also he gave me one of his books to keep and I love it so much. Then we went to box lunch and we walked around and talked anime and hyperfixations and video games then we bought matching pins that say as you wish from the princess bride. I also bought a pin that says screaming is normal with a wiggle worm. Then we went to hot topic and we talked about marvel and loki and I said I have a friend his name is loki, and he said oh my gosh that is the coolest tell me all about him, so I did. I used he/him pronouns because no clue if the guy hates gays or not. So then we talked about percy jackson then we went to spirt and we spent forever in spirit just being nerdy and cute and looking at stuff and omg I love this song but we just vibes and then we went to home goods and pet all the soft blankets and I was in sensory heaven at this point and then we sat in 400 dollar chairs and we just talked. About everything. His home life, the time he was in the hospital, my life, my 7cups life, nothing about any trauma I won't hurt him. Books movies marvel so many nerdy things. Then we went and got bubble tea. He's never had bubble tea so I bought him a peach mango bubble tea and he loved it and we went and sat on couches and I almost cuddled him but I didn't I was just laying on my side and we were watching memes. And we hugged Then he went home ): and when we got home we talked for hours and he told me he loved me and wished he cuddled me and I told him I loved him too and I wanted to fall asleep on his shoulder and then he said nothing could change his love for me and I said well you know I'm bi which means I like girls and boys and I'm genderfluid which means I'm like Alex from magnus chase. I was so scared. And then he said well it can't change anything because I'm bi too. We want to go to the next pridetogether. And he doesn't care about my scars. He thinks they are beautiful. He's just amazing and he calls me sunshine. Yellow sunshine and he called me sunny boy

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Iamspoons OP October 15th, 2023

@AvyIsKing

Omg I love that for you, he sounds like he's frickin amazing.

And eeeeeee, how much did you tell him about me, but even if you just introduced me as Loki with he/him I am estatic.


Screaming is normal and fun! I worked in a haunted house this weekend, I was in a casket (⁠・⁠∀⁠・⁠). I can scream really loud long and high, and on the second night it sounded like I had at least two extra souls screaming with me.

I met some pretty cool people also working there, they all had cool hair and gave off queer vibes. And the person in the room kept saying "if you knock they'll come out" so of course I had to whisper I'm gay before opening the casket and screaming at them. And there was a group of older boy that came through singing California girls and if that isn't the best way to do this idk what is. And my abs hurt now because I was basically doing crunches for two whole hours.

Oki ily. Also my mom made my phone lock from 8pm to like 7am, so I can't be on then. :⁠-⁠(

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AvyIsKing October 15th, 2023

@Iamspoons

Aso Friday I bought 80 dollars worth of books for 4 dollars and 50 cents 

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Iamspoons OP October 15th, 2023

@AvyIsKing

My dad's being a butthead and like I can't clean my room and put away my laundry because I don't have enough space in my dresser right now to put away laundry but I'm trying to clean out my closet and it's got all of their freaking wedding stuff in it and I'm like and then come to me it's complicated I need more space but like I can't deal with this b******* right now and so now I'm mad and I just met my brother for not going to take apart the f****** vacuum my doors open so we can probably hear everything I'm just expecting me to do stuff I'm so freaking tired.

Sorry that was all voice to text, and I don't want to go back to edit it.


Really cool that you got those books cheep tho

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Iamspoons OP October 16th, 2023

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M so *** tired.

Have I told you that my mom's a teacher at my school, she teaches a couple of the kids in my homeroom. She has the "reluctant learners" aka the boys that were calling each other camels. And she just ran into one of them in the hallway outside talking about how she's also subbing for another class, and he comes in talking about omg I thought I was gonna have Mrs. toothpaste (my last name) two classes in a row. And then some other people started *** about her too, idk if they've put my last name and her's together or not but, hey, if they want to bully me they have to talk to me first.

She's also wearing this ugly shirt thing, it's green with blue polka dots. And it's not even muted, it's like a crayon drawing.

Oki sorry for the rant, ily

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AvyIsKing October 16th, 2023

@Iamspoons

ily too, sorry i was sleeping

im sorry they are mean to ur mum

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Iamspoons OP October 16th, 2023

@AvyIsKing

Meh it's just the normal teacher slander.

Can I introduce you to my friends as my online bf? Sorry for this out of the blue question, I just don't know how much you're ok with.

And I'm glad you slept, I only got 2 hours max. Lol.

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AvyIsKing October 16th, 2023

@Iamspoons

yeah sure xD i dont mind lol 

also did u read my long post about my date (: we are going out again on thursdayyyyy

also i worked ahead last week because all my activities were on fall break so im a week ahead, i finished early today so i could paint but my sister isn't done so im being forced to do more chemistry, which isn't fair because i worked really hard and i just wish to paint 

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Iamspoons OP October 16th, 2023

@AvyIsKing.

Yea I did read it, thats amazing. Where are you going/doing ?

Yea that isn't fair. ಠ⁠︵⁠ಠ You should be able to paint

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Iamspoons OP October 16th, 2023

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I just saw a shoe get thrown through the air, but I couldn't see the person he was around the corner, so all I see is a black blob flying down through the hall and my first thought is "there better not be a *** bird in here"

My reality is so warped

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AvyIsKing October 17th, 2023

@Iamspoons

sorry i was running errands then i was drawing.

i got 0 sleep, book was triggering, jeffy isn't doing good at all and i tw relapsed. 

he's so old and the cold is setting in and i can see it in his face and his bones he hurts. idk if he will make it to be 8 honestly. 

i have a migraine because my mom is running the heat and im flipping tired and i got yelled at because i didn't get out of bed til 10 am 

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Iamspoons OP October 18th, 2023

@AvyIsKing

Oh it's oki, I was at the dentist and now my teeth feel weird.

It sounds like you had a rough time, I hope you're feeling at least a little bit better now, and it really sucks that Jeffy is getting old. Sometimes I wish pets could be immortal. Migraines suck.

Ilysm sending so many *huggles*

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AvyIsKing October 18th, 2023

@Iamspoons

*huggles*

mom said we can either set jeffy free at my aunt and uncles farm, because hed get eaten it would be natural and beautiful

she can take him to the vet to have him put to sleep, although I believe shed just set him free, vets are expensive. i wouldn't be allowed to go because vets make my allergies go nuts.

Or we let nature take its course. 

Hes doing better. Hes testing and moving around. 

I think its just too cold 

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Iamspoons OP October 18th, 2023

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Sorry

...ily

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AvyIsKing October 18th, 2023

@Iamspoons

Ilyt 

Sorry 

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AvyIsKing October 20th, 2023

@Iamspoons

Hiiii

I had band

I feel dead

I wish to sleep 

Hiw are yoy 

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Iamspoons OP October 23rd, 2023

@AvyIsKing

Hey, sorry I've been away. I've been slipping in and out of almost crisis. Lol. I've just been out of social energy. Didn't really want to talk. Sorry ily.

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AvyIsKing October 23rd, 2023

@Iamspoons

dont worry about it. i kinda had a meltdown and I've also been checking busy.

no crisis *bonk*

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Iamspoons OP October 23rd, 2023

@AvyIsKing

Omg just had a hallway convo about my gay harry Potter shirt. Omg the *** adrenaline.

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AvyIsKing October 23rd, 2023

@Iamspoons

yayyyyy thats good. but also scary.

i have a date then i have a drs app, fingers crossed they say surgery (:

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Iamspoons OP October 24th, 2023

@AvyIsKing

Oh, how'd the date go?

And what did the Dr say?

Uuuuu I had something else to say but I don't remember anymore.

Ily

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AvyIsKing October 24th, 2023

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bf was throwing up so we cancelled

anddddddddd

im going to a super fancy children's research hospital soon to do a fancy study for my walk to find out exwctly what they need to do surgically.

The idea of not being in pain makes me wanna cry

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Iamspoons OP October 24th, 2023

@AvyIsKing

Oooooo congratulations.

Sorry your bf wasn't feeling good, is he feeling better now?


I'm feeling not good emotionally. Cuz J(ex's new bf) just let me know that my only other irl friend that I thought wasn't hanging out with ex is doing a d&d campaign with them... So yeah. Typing this made me feel sick.

And I can't cut her off because that's not healthy. And also I'm overreacting, so wouldn't be able to do it anyway.

D&D has kinda turned into a trigger. Fun. It used to be an escape mechanism, now I'm like trapped even in a different *** world.

Sorry

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AvyIsKing October 24th, 2023

@Iamspoons

i havent talked to him yet today, ill let you know when i find out. 

also that's terrible. im so sorry ):

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Iamspoons OP October 24th, 2023

@AvyIsKing

Oki

:⁠-⁠| it's fine I'm just being a possessive ***. At least that what I'll be seen as if I go "um hey can you not go do anything with them" cuz that's just *** friend behavior.

Um yeah

Ily and want a hug please

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AvyIsKing October 24th, 2023

@Iamspoons

*big huggles and snuggles*

loki u need to wear ur titanic hoodie (:

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Iamspoons OP October 24th, 2023

@AvyIsKing

Thank you for the huggles, they really got me through the day. I only just got home at frickin 6:30. Today was super sucky, I was zoned out for at least half the day. And just too much people.

Ily

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AvyIsKing October 24th, 2023

@iamspoons

I'm glad you got through the day. 

I got new glasses I feel dahmer-y. 

Bf went to the Dr. It's stress. And it's only been recently. I think it's my fault. He has alot going on and being a boyfriend ontop of it, especially my boyfriend is way to much. ): 

Idk now I'm sad and depressed and I m still panicking over my foot and I'm terrified and I just want huggies 

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Iamspoons OP October 25th, 2023

@AvyIsKing

Hehe you got new glasses and I had a eye Dr appointment on the same day.


Oh nu, Im glad it's not contagious, but that really sucks that he's super stressed. I'm sure it's not your fault, yeah new relationships can be stressful but they said he had other stuff going on too, it's not just you.

I will give you so many huggies and cuddles. Just give my like half an hour or an hour and I'll be in one of the rooms. (I'm playing phase 10 with Dad for his birthday)

Ilysm

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AvyIsKing October 25th, 2023

@Iamspoons

ouuu fun

iysm

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Iamspoons OP October 25th, 2023

@AvyIsKing

I'm hanging out in tcr.

I seeeeee yoooou

👁️👁️

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Iamspoons OP October 25th, 2023

@AvyIsKing

Talking about college scares me. I don't like thinking about the future. I have no plans. Except for (not anymore) not existing then. Aaaaa

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Iamspoons OP October 25th, 2023

@AvyIsKing

I haven't done my math homework at all this week. I might be screwing myself over, but yolo I guess.

Um yeah good morning, I hope you slept. Ily

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AvyIsKing October 25th, 2023

@Iamspoons

do ur homework, i can help if you need, 

i barely slept. 

I dont feel good but oh well (:

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Iamspoons OP October 27th, 2023

@AvyIsKing

I am now broke in finch, but I have a plushie of each person, so that's a win.

Sorry I didn't reply for two days. I stopped taking my meds (I weand off of them, and talked to my med Dr before I did so) and it really *** me up, so I have had like any patience or focus. Sorry. My mom should have emailed my med Dr to see if I can go right back on the dose I was at or if I have to wean back on. But yeah. No more excuses.

Sorry I've been a *** friend, ily

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AvyIsKing October 27th, 2023

@Iamspoons

excuse me no

ur a good friend

glad u are back

imma be real busy the next few days and I've been super busy TvT

also bf finally feels better n he dropped his phone in water now im sad

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