Abby's ponderings, poems, and rants
I am going to post some of my ponderings and poems that I write on my feed from yime to time here, as well. Everyone is welcome to read and reply! I will occcasionally have some rants here, also ,,, but I ysyally try to keep those to a minimum 
and I don't really swear or use known trigger language in those ... if I'm afraid any of my entries on this thread will contain a trigger subjuect, I will put a warning at the top of the post.
Also ... if anyone replying is prone to using abusive language, or s.e.x. talk or malicious innuendos with the intent of trolling - you should not post a reply because I will likely flag it ... just saying.
I consider writing a hobby for me, and I would like to share this with all of you! 
I am not an object to be used.
I am not a trophy or a prize to be won and then placed on a shelf to gather dust and be forgotten about.
I am not a problem to be fixed - and then set aside and discarded in the
@AbbyHarris1976
I really loved this post 😃.
In this day of today, often people just associate others as some possession, as someone on whom they can just give their command and make them work accordingly. But that's not true. We are all humans after all, and we aren't any materials. We are a living soul with conpassion and a heart to love and live. 😃
Here's a very wise quote ... this is taken from Star Trek: The Next Generation
"When children learn to devalue others, they can devalue anyone, including their parents."
This was said by Captain Jean-Luc Picard to his Cardassian interrogator Gul Madred in the episode Chain of Command Part 2. Madred had just shown Picard to his daughter before resuming his interrogation. There is a lot of truth and wisdom to this statement, as we as children do not learn to value or devalue others just by ourselves ... it is taught to us by our environment in which we grow up.
@AbbyHarris1976
thats something good to keep in mind when raising children.. its the little things they observe that teach the most.. the way i value people is the best way to prove them i really do what i say and that that is an important thing..
@AbbyHarris1976
This is such a nice quote, thanks so much for posting this.
Often people just forget to value others and just discriminates others which is really not good at all. But when one child, obey and value others, and grows with this personality, the earth become a good place to live with all the people together 😃.
Baby, it
@AbbyHarris1976
It's so relatable and saddening as well, as since the feeds are removed, somehow the daily motivation source has been limited a bit. And it's tough to be able to visit each user's forum which they have made to compensate with the feed removal. But we all are in this and we all will get through this tough time. And will be able to see our friends and others forum feeds as well 😃.
@AbbyHarris1976
totally agreed Abby..
it had an importance..
but i guess the harder is to adapt. Now im starting to.. before i was forgetting to visit the forums . I will start doing it more often. Ill do what I can so this wont be a defeat. We care and we have willpower.. that makes all the difference.. sending you a big hug and some warmth on thtis cold winter day.. you are a great person and your thoughts are deep and wise. Thank you for sharing them with me and all here. 💜
Today, I
@AbbyHarris1976
thats great Abby, so cool thag you posted here! I wish you a wonderful day!! Its a good day to be under the comforter! Hugs
Im letting these worries go:
Some 💩 thing happened during my MeetUp yesterday with my friend, and now my friendship is in jeopardy. 👎😢 I dont start this 💩, but I will end that nonsense! ✊
#MovingOn
@AbbyHarris1976
im sorry that happened Abby.. you do well moving on.. sending you a hug 💜
@AbbyHarris1976
Am sorry about the tough time, but i hope you two will work on with your friendship and things will be ok and heal soon. Hugs
Okay, so basically ... my good friend from the Social Anxiety MeetUp that I co-organize events with? Turns out he appears to have some feelings for me ... yeah, THOSE kinda feelings and the end result is Im feeling REALLY AWKWARD about it and also like our friendship could be in danger of failing. 👎
I mean ... he wanted to hug and kiss me and I can allow some of that, but there HAS to be some boundaries, too. I kinda felt a little like a cat that just got tossed into a filled bathtub 🤣 and Im concerned about the friendship failing when I enforce my boundaries ... but I WILL enforce them for his good as well as mine. 👍 Were talking about someone who met my Dad, who will be coming to see me this week, and I would like my friend to see my Dad again ... but, good grief, I hope he doesnt act like a fool (like he did yesterday) in front of my Dad 😱🤭
@Lavendersubmarine
This is so true and meaningful 😃
Okay, so here's the update with my ... overly affectionate friend JC. 
We're gonna go through with our plans to have him come over for dinner at a local restaurant with my father, who has come to visit. It's reminding me of Star Trek 6, The Undiscovered Country ... where Klingon Chancellor Gorkon and his daughter Azetbur meet with Capptain Kirk and his crew. 
Hopefully, this meeting ends up better for my Dad and I than it did for Chancellor Gorkon. My Dad says he wants to discuss polotics with JC (who I believe may have ADHD ... good luck) about the Guatemalan people ... this will be interesting. 
I'm looking at this like a "peace conference" after what happened with JC last Saturday after our meetup group.
OOPS ... POLITICS. I can't type so well on this keyboard because the white letters on the black background can sometimes be hard to see
I'm taking these steps for myself today:
Have a productive dinner out with my friend JC to restore our friendship
#smallsimplestep
@AbbyHarris1976
you do very well Abby! Good dinner!!!
@AbbyHarris1976
glad to hear that you had a great dinner with your friend.
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I apologise, I did not read much about the concern and relationship issue you had encountered with your friend. I hope that the tension can be eased off soon.
but just a wild suggestion/thought from me. maybe the "focus" should be on healing relationship or just a simple dinner invite without intent might make things easier to manage or flow through and perhaps enjoyable despite the outcome. so that there will be lesser judgement or objective thoughts like
- must make it "grand"
- it has to be productive or an objective/motive
However I wont deny in our current world or mentality, many times we drive down the need for justifying of our actions otherwise it feels like a "waste" - Sorry... I'm a major offender myself.
@Lavendersubmarine
So true, yet sometimes
Others - Dont seem to get it
Myself - Seem to forget my main needs, but yet keep thinking that I must (expectation management) have some outcome when I ask/seek help or talk to others.
In the next few entries here, I