Abby's ponderings, poems, and rants

Here is my first attempt at poetry. I posted this on my feed back on Feb. 24 before heading out to a meal MeetUp with friends that midday.

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It rained last night in Chicago, the tears of the angels for those hurt and taken advantage of.

Now the wind rages with the fury of the hurt and unloved.

I ride the rainbow train to fellowship while you fall from the sky, from the heights of short-lived pleasure. Can you see me on your way down?

I am traveling to a table of friendship. You are welcome there, but have you already had your fill?

Time goes by along with the next trend and the next big thrill. When I am 60 years old and I wake up one day, I will have no regrets, because when I come to the table of fellowship, I dont leave hungry and unfulfilled.

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The "rainbow train" is in reference to Chicago's El system ... the El train routes are color coded, and I was taking the Red Line from my events that day. This poem also alludes to a central theme of my poems, ponderings, and posts here on 7 Cups ... that long lasting friendship relationships are better and healthier than relationships based on seeking lustful short-lived pleasure relationships where one or the other person ends up feeling used.

Here's another one ... this one is actually two poems that I wrote combined ... and is also my attempt at creating a "mindfullness" post.

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Time keeps flowing like a river. Sometimes I feel Im behind time, sometimes I feel Im ahead of time.

Time keeps flowing slowly, then quickly, but do we ever run out of time, flowing infinitely?

Somewhere along the river of time, time caught up with me, now as I get older, time passes me by.

Ill just go with the flow, and enjoy this journey.

Time slows down, and then speeds up with every breath we take.

Breathe in, breathe out slowly - with the ebb and flow of the river of time.

Can you feel the flow?

It is time to drift off to sleep, to the gentle flow of time.

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Here's a pondering I posted just this last Valentine's Day!

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True love does not hurt or cause pain.

True love is GENTLE.

True love is careful, thoughtful, and kind. ❤️❤️❤️

True love seeks true companionship and fellowship rather than short-lived pleasure lust.

True love is LONG LASTING.

On this Valentines Day, I hope you all find TRUE LOVE! ❤️🙂❤️

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They say beautiful is as beautiful does ... and it

Kindness is like soothing raindrops on the petals of a rose. A flower cannot grow and bloom without the cool, gentle rain or the warmth of the sun. Nor can anyone grow inside without kindness and compassion, for kindness is as essential to life as nourishment.

When I experience kindness, I feel happiness inside like ripples flowing to the shore from Lake Michigan, calming and soothing a turbulent inner storm.

Always be kind to one another in word and in deed, because this can transform the world, one soul at a time.

There is a beast raging within

This beast is not evil, or angry without reason, or malevolent, but is still a beast

This is a beast who is hurt and cannot trust

I pace around like a lion in a twisted cage with spiked bars waiting for your reply, waiting for someone to see my pain and situation. Where are you??

There is a thorn in my paw, but on closer look, it is not a thorn ... it is a poisonous scorpion's barb, lodged hard and deep in my paw, in my heart, in my soul. Deep inside me spreading its poison throughout me and all I feel is pain and unrest.

I roar at the pain and the hurt ... can you hear me? Do you feel any empathy for this raging beast within?

I only seek compassion, kindness, and gentleness. Will you kindly and gently remove this poisonous stinger within me? Will you remove the thorn from my paw?

The wind rages in Chicago with all its might, this is the rage and fury that comes from inner pain

The wind chimes listen to the fierce wind and its fury, and calmly reply in sweet melody

My laughter is the melody of the music of the wind chimes. Can you hear me?

I wish you all reading this to laugh like the melody and music of the wind.

RANT ON THE BEHAVIOR OF SOME LISTENERS HERE

RANT ALERT!!

This rant will contain masked questionable language and links to posts describing inappropriate listener behavior.

Disclaimer: I absolutely understand if this post ends up being edited to remove the links for the sake of protecting privacy of those posting on those threads and those who began them. My intent of posting them here is only to show examples of some of those so-called listeners' behavior toward vulnerable members opening up to them.

As a concerned member who often sees herself as an ambassador and emissary between listeners and members to promote fellowship and friendship between the two community groups, and to hopefully ease tensions between the groups, I have become very shocked and saddened by the following examples of so-called "listener" behavior toward vulnerable members who are only trying to seek help and are opening up about their issues.

https://www.7cups.com/forum/DepressionSupport_52/DepressionSessionForumActivities_332/Lackofsupportfromlistenersfordepressionandanxiety_199535/

https://www.7cups.com/forum/GeneralSupport_28/GeneralEntries_1596/WherecanIreportalistenerwhohasblockedmeandwasinappropriatewithme_200227/

https://www.7cups.com/forum/GeneralSupport_28/DiaryEntriesConnections_1597/7cupslistenersandsupportishorribletome_188420/

https://www.7cups.com/forum/GeneralSupport_28/GeneralEntries_1596/Justventingonlisteners_200371/

https://www.7cups.com/forum/GeneralSupport_28/GeneralEntries_1596/listenermadefunofme_200523/

Sometimes, I think that some of these listeners are treating 7 Cups like it's any other social media site (e.g. Fakebook - and the nickname I called that site is true! ) and are more concerned with how their damned profile looks and their ratings than if they're really helped anyone! You all are likely making it worse, and WTF do you think is gonna happen if your apathy and narcissim leads the member you're chatting with to self-h4rm or even commit, well ... you know (I don't even wanna mention that). That's gonna be on YOU! You didn't care enough!

I don't give a damn about your f*ing profile pictures or your GD 5-star ratings! BACK IT UP!! You care about me and wanna turn my tears to smiles again?? PROVE IT!!

Maybe you can do that for me today ... but what happens tomorrow? Can you f*ing answer THAT for me rather than think you've "fixed" me, thereby considering me yet another damned JOB on your list and moving on without caring enough to check in once in awhile?

It's called CARING, and it's also called LISTENING! Maybe y'all fake social media wannabes should realize that before signing up to be listeners. You either go ALL IN or GET THE F OUT!

Your heart and soul, my friend, is like a Hall of Mirrors. I walked inside the Hall of Mirrors to see your reflection, to see who you were.

Your reflection, however, was not the same, as the one staring into the mirrors. THe reflections were all someone else,

So, the Hall of Mirrors came crashing down like a house of cards, unable to stand under the weight of its illusion.

And now I hold a shard of a broken mirror and look into it.

But I do not see any reflection, only emptiness.

@AbbyHarris1976

Your poems are really wonderful and eye opening. I love how you are able to connect the situations.

Keep writing and posting, its wonderful to read all the poems.