A Quiet Space for Psalm139 and IsayUncle (Please do not reply or respond. Thank You)
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@Psalm139 @IsayUncle
He seems to be a good doctor and that's great you think he's nice too. Has your anxiety been mostly in control lately and have you been doing well with your med schedule? (and vitamins)
@IsayUncle. Yeah, I like him. I still don't want I don't know. Its ok but I think the darkness is doing its thing as usual. I haven't beta king my vitamins either. I need to put them in my med box.
@Psalm139 *been taking not beta king
@Psalm139
Good Morning! I hope you have a great day. 
I know what you mean about the darkness. Do you think a light box will help? Something that helps me a lot is a philosophy or (a thought mechanism) I have about it all. I think nature trys to balance our high energy milder months with quieter restful months. So I don't think ALL ALL the low key energy we experience in the winter is bad or episodes of depression.
All I'm trying to say is, "I think it is normal and NEEDED... by nature to have low energy" Thinking about this badly all the time leads to and creates an extra level of depression. I personally accept a lot of these feelings as part of ME as a human and embrace a lot of the low key moments in the winter as blessings. Like... Mother Nature knows best.
I'm not being dumb here. There is an absolute and real sense of dread and depression in the winter months. (Sometimes we can't do anything about it but suffer).
@IsayUncle That's actually a good way to think about it. Like permission to rest. I'm trying to move our bedtime up again too so that it doesn't feel like half of the day is dark. I don't know if a light box would help. I might try it and see. Has the earlier darkness been affecting you at all? Lmk how it goes on your bus today!
@Psalm139
Good Morning. I was too tired to check in last night. How did your day day go yesterday, anything interesting happen?
Oh yea, definetly about the earlier darkness. You know me good enough now that I can get pretty depressed if I don't get things done.... SO losing all those hours really amps up my anxiety, sense of failure and expectations. It's easy for me to get shut down for weeks at a time and slip into a deep depression for long periods of time.
I really do think winter is truely meant to slow us down and we should go with the flow. for me it's more than just permission, it's a forceful manipulation by nature to Insisit. The darker hours, The colder weather, The inclement weather, All mechanical things not working properly. and etc.
I feel it to my core. It's not like stop doing everything and have a party and throw responsibities out the window. I Just have to do things at a much slower rate. Normally that could lead to me to depression but in the winter I accept nature as my safety valve and instead of blowing my top I move in a much more sober mood. Not necessairily happy but definetly not depressed. (I still suffer from depressinon in the winter months) but not as much.
Absorbing this reality actually feels good to me sometimes.
Hi M, again.
I commented on another post about being triggered by the season. It's not exactly what we've been talking about but kind of a fun read. This is the link but if you don't feel like checking it out, I still wanted to share what I wrote with you. https://www.7cups.com/forum/GeneralSupport_28/General_2440/TistheSeasontobeTriggered_291242/
(My comment)
I believe negative energy and positive energy are niether bad or good, niether right or wrong.
Negative and Positive energies DO have the power to make us feel bad or good, or right and wrong.
Negative energy is cheap, easy and plentiful but very weak and impotent on it's own. But in abunance it is a very destructive force. And sadly it is in abundance because it is so cheap, plentiful and easy to obtain and spread it to others to spread also.
Positive energy is powerful, precious and extremely valuable but very hard to aquire and hang onto. Positive energy in small bits can destroy mountains of negative energy. Positive energy is not easy to obtain. It takes a world of hard work to get a store of positive energy. After working very hard to get it, it is important to share it and give it away to others that cannot farm thier own at the moment.
Positve Energy is a million times more powerful than Negative Energy. It's up to us keep working hard to squash the abundance of negative energy by never giving up on our ourselves or those in need.
@IsayUncle I have a bad headache right now so Ill read and respond to this later, ok?
@Psalm139
Absolutely. and not pressing at all. I hope ypu feel much better soon. I just finished bringing the students home after workng a project all day. it went very well.
Good night and feel better. 
@Psalm139
Hey, Hey, Good Morning.
I hope you are feeling better this morning. AND please don't stress on my philosophying. I know I could be a bit much sometimes and I'm sorry. It often drives people away so I try to keep it to a minimum.
I really am sorry you had a headache yesterday and hope things are better this morning. Did anything happen to give you a headache; like a bad day or something?
@ Psalm139
Well, hello M, Did you have a good day? I hope so. I'm answering your question over here about the electronics because I missed our conversations here. I got three or four things to get. New phone, New Headsets, Camera and microphone set up for my computer and a wireless mouse for my lap top.
Did it feel good to take a break from ole 7 cups? You doing OK today?
@Psalm139
When and if you want to tell me how you are feeling. I'm right here. You seem to be having a hard time navigating our friendship but take your time. Things get better as we take time to figure stuff out.
I do hope you enjoyed your holiday with your family. I'll try not to impose on you but remain a friend when you need one.
@IsayUncle You aren't imposing on me. I'm sorry I haven't been around. I have read your posts but other people were talking to you and you seemed ok and I thought that was what you wanted. I haven't been doing that well so didn't want to say anything wrong either. I have to go to my in laws again tomorrow. We are staying the night there again. I hope you had an ok Thanksgiving and good luck finding deals. You like to shop in store instead of online?
@Psalm139
You do know that I'm glad when you read my other posts. They are for you too you know. I'm happy for you to know what I'm trying and what I'm doing.
We made this safe place here for us to talk so you can always ask me about stuff here, that you read elsewhere. That's would be great. Relaxing, Talking, Sharing... Wherever you are comfortable.
You've withdrawn some since we've first met but like I've already told you a few times.... that's OK, You share as much feel up to, or as little as you want . I'm ok if your ok. I know with the holidays and the winter blues, you have a lot going on. I hope you have a great day today. It's raining here a little bit. I'm still doing paperwork and sorting my days plans... go out or not go out? Not sure yet.
The phone is the primary reason I'm going to a store store. I like asking questions to a real person about things like that. Everything else I could get on the internet but f I'm out and about, I try to make the best of it.
Good morning... here's my usual corny coffee pictures. 
I finished my monotonus chores late last night and now will try to start a routine again. Do you remember we tried or started that about a month back. I'm going to try again. I never give up on that which is important to me.
What are you doing today? (I might go shopping) And how are you feeling? (And saying "ok" can be a vauge and ambigious answer so maybe you can put a "+ or -" next to if you want for me) Like I'm OK- today or I'm OK+ today. What do you think?
@IsayUncle Just got home from Justin's parents' house last night. It was exhausting but went pretty well. I'm confused about what you want in our friendship. I thought you wanted me to be less clingy and dependent. That's why I haven't been sharing as much. Idk. Maybe you could explain what you want and how I am supposed to act. I hope things have been going well for you.
@Psalm139
I forgot you were going to the in-laws. I'm glad it went good. I just got home from big city. Exhausted too.
Just share what you like. It's about what you feel comfortable with. I just feel like you are down in the dumps a lot lately but i don;t really know so I hope your doing good.
@IsayUncle Yeah I have been but also just don't know how you want me to be because you said I was looking for a closer friendship than you and so I don't want to be too much. Anyway though. Did you get a new phone? What else did you do in the city?
@Psalm139
I think this form of commuinication results in a lot of misunderstandings but it's still good to have someone to talk to. In the listener course there are several guidelines that tell a peson not to try to solve the other persons problems but just to be there. I had a hard time with that concept for my whole life but now I think I understanstand it better. When a person is ready (and able) to shake off thier oppressive clothing, they will; and that'll be awesome but people are wonderful just the way they are too. I'm sorry you've been in the dumps and it's been for a while now. If the confusion in our conversations is making you feel bad, I'm sorry but I'd like to keep talking and trust each other It'll work out. Life really is good (When we're not feeling bad).
I did get my phone and had an amazing pizza and got a lot of groceries I can't usually get. The phone was the biggest pain in the butt because I had to go to 3 or 4 different stores before knowing what I was doing but I got real lucky because nice employees at the att store let me bring in my cheaper phone from walmart and they set it all up for me... no charge. The best part is I now have internet calling so I can get call and texts at my house where ther is no cell service, that was the main reason for the whole expenditure and it worked.
How are you feeling today and What are you doing?
@IsayUncle Sorry I didn't get back sooner. And sorry I'm not changing the way you want me to. I don't really know how. I'm glad you got your new phone and that was nice that the person at the at&t store was willing to help you. Are you back to work today? Justin is. He couldn't find his work keys this morning so he woke me up. We got a new Christmas tree yesterday. Do you put one up? Do you like Christmas? Tomorrow is that scope thing I have to have done. Ill be glad to have that over and maybe find out what's going on. Anything going on for you this week?
Yay for the Christmas tree. By the way, you don't have to change for me. You're awesome. Yea, I'm back to work too. today i shold have fixed my brakes but *** the morning away.
I hope the throat scope finds something out. I guess You're still having swallowing problems. 😟. does your throat hurt too?
@IsayUncle The swallowing problems have been going on a long time but no one ever ordered a test before now. I can eat some things ok but some things get stuck. Sometimes it feels sore but idk. I'm nervous but its at 6:30 am so will hopefully be over before I really realize it. What are you doing today?
@Psalm139
I just got back from bussing anfd now I'll try to play catch-up with my chores again. Like they say, "Mustard" enough "Juice" to "Ketchup" and and get "A Head" of "Lettuce us finish"
I just made some of that up... going to post it on goals and accomplishments for a laugh.
Early appointment (Really early, that's good.) It'll be ok, they know what they're doing and you'll be fine but it's awesome it's early so not a lot of time to worry.
I'm just going to do paperwork and housework. Yippe Skippee. You doing anything good this evening?
@IsayUncle Yeah it is early and I hope you are right that everything goes well. I probably won't be on here until the afternoon or evening so don't worry if you don't hear from me. Ill probably be tired and out of it for a while. Have a good day. Ttyl.
@ Psalm139
You got this. Easy does it and I hope it all goes well. Have a very good morning. When you're up to it, let me know how it went. 😊
Hey, just a quick shout-out. I'm back off to work in about an hour and i kinow you said later this evening you'll be on. So, how did it go?
@IsayUncle It went well. I have a stomach hernia so I have to take medicine and follow a special diet. Only one cup of coffee a day. Then in three months they will check and if those things don't improve it I might need an actual surgery to fix it. It will be hard to have so little coffee but oh well. How is your day going?
@Psalm139
I'm glad it went well. I looked it up and it seems to be a pretty big deal to me. But I guess you are relieved to figure it out. Bummer about the coffee and special diet. I'm just watching tv.
@IsayUncle I meant it went well as far as anesthesia. And I look at it like I already knew something was wrong, so knowing what it is doesn't change my symptoms. At least now maybe it can get better. Plus I'm just happy its over.
What are you watching on tv lately?
...... just 1 😬. U can do it.💚