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Hi, I had a pretty good visit with my family. The snow was minimal. He had a hard time breathing both mornings but the morphine got it under control, though they had to increase his dose on Saturday. On Saturday when both my sisters and my mom were there, and my sister brought us lunch, he got all upset wondering where we would all sit and how we would have room to put everything and had an anxiety attack and started shaking. It kills me that little things that aren't a problem at all get him so distraught. My sister is taking a cake decorating class to she made a cake for us to share on Saturday, Mom made blueberry cobbler on Friday, and I had some cookies, so my eating was bad once again.

I am with you about losing the magic formula. I lost almost 40 pounds in 2013-2014 and it wasn't even that hard. I just had discipline. Now I just want to lose 8 pounds (that I gained back in the last year) and I can't lose a single one.

I'm glad your work schedule is easing up! I was glad I took last Friday off. I needed a mental break. I have not been very patient with some kids lately and have been feeling bad about that.

How are your supplements going? I'm glad your exercise is going well, and the pool sounds fun! Mine is still so-so but should be better this week (barring too much snow or ice). On Saturday I did one of my online 30 min low impact cardio workouts and my mom joined me, so that was really nice. Nothing on Sunday, but I got to the Y this morning. Tomorrow is yoga if the weather cooperates.

Stay warm and safe!

Again, lasy night I typed a long answer and- it went away. BUMMER. It may have been weather-internet related. I saaid, i'm glad you had a visit with your dad and i know how hard it is to go thru that. I remember how it was with my Dad and so difficult to accept. just live-love the moments you have together.

I told you about my dinner on Sunday at the Crazy Greek(southside) Dave, my fiance parked the car in front of a Asian restaurant that was 2 doors down , and I immediately detoured - it was so Good. I had the appetizer platter, with all the good stuff, and he had scallops/shrimp pasta ( i had wine, naturally) Then I asked the son/waiter " is Mamma in the house/" and he pointed me to her making the desert at that moment- making the lemon marscaponi, or how ever it it spelled, that marvelous light bread-like pudding and she brought it out herself. We rarely eat out- this was such a treat.

We have a Lenten soup supper tomorrow with meditation/prayer, a quiet candle service and i'm making one of the soups( vegetarian) and picking up my mom to go too. She will enjoy it and have nothing to complain about. Some folks call Episcopalians 'Catholic lite". No dogma or strict rules( everyone can take communion) but an invitation to meet God whevever you are. my mom is Baptist, but she ebjoys it. I hope you find a fauth community that meets your needs soon, it really helps in so many ways.

I am having one oe 2 glasses of wine pretty much every night, but trying to watch my sugar intake otherwise. Plus exercise- that's my strong point. At the pool tonight with Rachael- same last night. and it was cold. But she enjoys it and the laughter makes it worth it.

Hope your week goes well and you get some exercise in one way or another.You are my sounding board and I am here for you.

Hi, just a quick message. I'm in PA. Dad got worse even since the weekend. My son and husband drove me up last night with 2 cars because I was afraid of the bad roads up here. They went home this morning so I could have my car. I spent today with him. He barely ate anything and is in and out of sleep. Tomorrow he will come home and be on hospice. I might need to go home and work Friday so I can save a leave day for the next week, and maybe I can come back over the weekend. The doctor said once they stop eating it's maybe a week or so.

I am so sorryand i pray for all of you. We had a nice mid week- Lenten service and i made soup. I am so happy to hear- even a sad- wprd from you. so again, PLEASE don't feel bad if you can't ger here to message me. my heart is with you and you know that.

and u know what- tell work to screw it--- your time with your Dad is in no way worth a day of tine off. i missed days with my /dad because my home life with my former husband was so bad- i bauled him out of money woes so that I didn't have 25 dollars of gas money to go and visit. I regret that niow- but i really didn't have it. Take the tine. That's all mty advice.

love,love,love and strength for thr journey for you my friend.

And sorry for the typos- its late

Dad died around 4:30 this morning. I'm so glad my sisters and I were here. We spent today making arrangements and buying flowers and all that. Mom spent the night there so she was with him. My sisters and I slept at mom's house and went over around 6 this morning so we could see him before they picked him up at 7.

My Dad was fond of Drambuie and last weekend he said something about it, so I had decided to do a last round with him once we got him home. He didn't get home, so we took the Drambuie to the facility and toasted him with it before they came for him. The viewings are Sunday and funeral Monday so I'm staying here until next Tuesday.

My prayers are with you. It didn't sound like it would be long, and I know you can't really process it all yet- but it is good that he didn't have to suffer for months. Everything else pales when your father dies. I wish I could help with the animals, but I hope there is someone close by that can help. stay in touch when you can.

I got home yesterday evening, feeling drained and sad. I had been sleeping ok the first few days after he died, but since Sunday night I have slept poorly. My first day back to work today and I stayed in bed an extra hour instead of exercising and am still exhausted. I am the type that cries easily, so I needed to be better rested to face my first day at work, with everyone saying how sorry they are, and the kids all asking where I've been for a week. I'm not ready for that.

I ate so much junk food and most of my meals were bad. I've gained about 5 pounds, exercised only one day, feel gross even aside from the exhaustion. I also was drinking some, but will at least try go back on the wagon for the rest of Lent.

One bright spot is that one of my goats had triplets last Saturday. I missed it, but seeing them will give me a lift each day.

So happy to see you back. i know what you mean about people asking about it, which just makes you talk, and hope not to cry and how can you help it, ect. When our Pastor's mom died, our deacon wisely requested us to NOT ask ( when she returned) "How are you doing".What do you think??? when my Dad died, i clutched his church Elder's manual to my heart during Communion or I would not have made it.

Do not blame yourself at all for the lapse in any food/drink during this time. I spent the night in my Dad's home ( where i visited and took care of him many nights) after he died and it was so heart wrenching that I drank so much wine that I hardly got thru the eulogy that I personally read for me and my 3 sisters at the funeral. I relate on all levels for you.

BABY GOATS!! so glad you have a happy place. I got good news today too- my daughter Abi( the VCU grad) was accepted at University of Richmond to get her Master's in HR. Unfortunately, VCU does not offer that degree since she is a die hard Rams gal- but UVR is an elite school that will work well for her future- we hope. Let the study-ing begin again. That will cut into her social life/ spending- HA!

Take as long as you need to rest and recover- your father is in far better hands. It is weird, i felt closer to my Dad when he was no longer suffering. I would talk to him and actually feel him close to me- comforting. I wish that for you my friend.

I made it through my first 3 days back to work and managed not to cry there, though it was close a couple of times. I tried to exercise yesterday for about half an hour at the Y. It was very half-hearted but at least I was moving. I have been back on the wagon since Wednesday. The urge to drink was strong tonight but I'm trying to resist for the rest of Lent.

Congrats to your daughter! UVR is a great school. Good luck to her in her graduate studies!

I brought home some of my Dad's extensive record collection. Wish I could have brought it all but I don't have the room. Dragged a turntable out to the living room this afternoon and have been listening to his Broadway show recordings. Started out with Rex Harrison and Julie Andrews in My Fair Lady. Rocking to Mary Martin in South Pacific right now. :)

How are things going with you?