Good moments 🌈
hey everyone, i'm creating this space for myself to come to every day, hopefully, and share my good moments. ✨
when i say 'good moment', it doesn't mean i have to feel happy or anything. it could be anything that made me feel a tiny bit better or something that made me feel good for a little bit. it could even be something that happened that's supposed to be good, even if it didn't change how i feel. or if i'm having a particularly bad day, a good moment could be a moment when i just didn't feel that horrific. and of course, it could be a moment when i just somehow magically feel fine for a bit, with no apparent cause. magic, lol. 🪄
i've recently realised that thinking of good moments makes every day feel a tiny bit different, instead of every day feeling the same and having that school, homework, exam, eat, sleep, repeat cycle going on. when i'm depressed and have been for months on end, it's really easy to just see that and forget the good that does occasionally come. perhaps after a while of posting on this thread, i might even be able to go back and read previous good moments when i'm feeling awful.
i know that every time i try to feel better and actually get to feeling better, it eventually comes crashing down soon and i feel bad again. but i guess i'll try to feel better anyway by focusing on the good moments. and when i do get to feeling better, i want to make the best of it and use it to get work done, so that the times when it gets bad again don't affect my schoolwork too much.
i will really try to come here every day and post something, even if it's very small and seems insignificant, even if i feel like i didn't have anything good happen that day. and if i ever have a miracle day when i have a lot of good moments, i'll try my best to list them all out for me to read on the awful days that follow (somehow my really good days are always followed by some really bad ones, and it sucks). if i ever miss a day of posting, i will try to post that day's good moments the next day.
i know that sometimes i will need to mention the bad stuff too here, to be able to explain why something was a good moment, but in general, i will try my best to avoid talking too much about the bad on this thread.
thank you, @bestVase7265, for encouraging me to write down my good moments. this idea of yours has been of a lot of help to me. i hope it works well with this thread for posting good moments. feel free to follow along and read whatever good i find every day, and share yours too (only if you'd like to, of course. you can always just stick to our space if you wish). 🤍🤍
anyone else reading this is welcome to share their good moments as well, i'd love to hear them. wishing you all the best. 💙
i'm sorry i've been missing posting lately. on sunday i didn't have wifi and also got busy with schoolwork hehe. last night i started typing and started feeling so sleepy that i decided to stop and go to sleep. right now i want to do this but i'm too sleepy so i'll just post for today and go to sleep.
tuesday (17th dec): today unfortunately started of horribly. i felt miserable – just felt so down and depressed and was having very bad thoughts. but then i decided to sit and watch some youtube, and i found something that was extremely comforting. i felt so much better after that. it really comforted me and reminded of the tiny good, safe and comforting things in life, in a world that feels like a very bad, unsafe and uncomfortable place. and i got my magical wave of feeling good for today.
eating an apple this morning for some reason felt so nice. and it's really cold today so sitting down in front of my room heater feels good. showering too. i always love showering, but i love it even more in the winters and getting out of the shower is so hard.
at school later today (because of sports day), i overheard someone saying "physically i'm fine. mentally i'm not." you know that feeling when you hear something so very relatable? it feels good, doesn't it? i can really relate to being fine physically but not mentally. that is me most of the time to be honest, except the times when i'm not fine physically as well and the very rare times when i'm fine mentally.
i also saw some kids supporting and encouraging someone who was crying. it gives me hope whenever i see people being emotionally supportive, especially if i see it in real life.
also, it was good to finally get to drink water and eat something after our marchpast. i was so crazy thirsty, and actually hungry too.
it was nice seeing how happy people of my house were in the sports day, even though we came third. we were celebrating coming third and not last because for the last few years we had been coming last. even this year, we were low on house points but we caught up and made it to third position. it doesn't really matter to me and i don't care but it's good seeing people happy. i want people to be genuinely happy.
i found a song today and though it's not super relatable, it's really comforting somehow. it made me cry so much. crying helps me feel better a lot of times. i really cried a lot and felt a little lighter afterwards.
i think that's all i have for today.
@exuberantBlackberry9105
today my cat came to me in my bed and curled up next to me as a little spoon... it was splendid, best day of my week