🐢⭐To you 🎢🙂

🌊Dear You🌙

Thank you for opening this letter. You probably won’t be reading much at the moment. So I need to grab your attention!! Hehe!!! No wise words or advice here. I don't know the right things to say but I sincerely hope this this will make you feel better today and anytime you choose to read it. Ahem, buckle up , kay ? Beware of emotional rollercoasters🎢

You might feel like a lot is weighing down on your shoulders right now . Not knowing how to balance it , not knowing know if and when it is going eventually crush you . It's terrifying. It might feels like nothing you do ends up well. That your efforts behind your "failed attempts" isn't appreciated. And at this point, everything seem bleak. It might be too much to think about how to get through another day. There are no words to express everything one has to go through sometimes , to express the things going through your mind or the ache in your heart. The fact that you have all of it going on in your mind, yet you still manage to leave your bed and face the world every day. To try to swim against life currents and the occasional tree trunks that add insult to injury , you own my utmost respect for it. And every person who has been where you are , would feel like what I do. And be proud of you .

You're an amazing person and even if you can't see that now, I'm sure you will soon.I don't want your past to define who you are. It will always be a part of you , an important part of you. Maybe a horribly sad and painful part. But not all of you .it will always be a part of you. And you will be so so much more than that. If you’re reading this and you’re having a hard time, no matter how big or small it seems to you, I want to know that I see you , I know your struggle is valid . Please remind yourselves that you’re not weird or different for being what you are at the moment. It's valid and reasonable.

Sometimes life gets so messed up that we cannot continue on the same page. We have to turn and start on a new one . It hurts , to leave everything behind, to try to forget , to try again and YET miserably fail. You make mistakes, experience setbacks and disappointments, and get discouraged. We all do. Unfortunately, those things will always be the unnecessary but yet default part of the journey . I know its not easy. It takes a lot to *try* to make any change in the way you feel at the moment. Why ? Because sometimes it's hard to believe that any of us can feel anything but broken till the end. That's okay . Its okay. I know it seems doubtful sometimes, probably now too , but while you read this , I want you to remind yourself that its a feeling. Feelings seems true depending on situations but it's NOT ALWAYS a fact. Right? I will answer that one for you. DAMN RIGHT!!

Just like a goat who knows how to find water , even when it's lost in a desert, we also have the strength in us , to find our own fresh page , to paint fresh smiles on it , again. It’s not some magical process. It’s terrifying and awkward and hard, at least in my experience so far. I know its hard. It's okay if you haven't reached there. But you can , I know you will . Maybe not somewhere around the time you read this letter, but gradually you will , because you can. And whichever pace it happens, I want you to know that " pace " isn't a sign of weakness or strength. We have different stories, different situation, different demons to hide from. So a different pace for each of us. Sounds fair , right?

Please take it easy. Learning to be kind to yourself can be a lifelong project . That's okay too. We can do that . Please let yourself rejoice again in small things, like an walk in the rain, or the smile of a stranger ,or discovering new things to do , that give you a sense of achievement. Small and achievable things , to give you joy, to celebrate what you have done. Doesn't need to be a hobby, just anything that makes you feel better. Because for as long us it does , it's perfect! I do jigsaw puzzles and veeery bad knitting. I hope gradually you can also find your own choice. If you want to , you can try to discover new activities as much as eventually as you find comfortable . I think you are very good at poems. I will pray , that it hurts a little less, when you choose to write one. And if I get to see it, you will definitely spot me in the #cheerteam .

I don't want you to think you're replaceable, because you're NOT. I don't want you to ever wonder if you should be in the world. And if you ever think you have no reason to be here, think of me who wrote this to you and of everyone else who cares for you . I need you here. We need you here. Always. Period!

Even though you are not feeling well now , we will never stop celebrating you. Sorry. We will never stop celebrating the day you came to us and the days you are among us. Nothing will ever change that. Much better days lie ahead for you. Love yourself. Know that you are loved, worthy, deserving and capable. You’ve got what it takes. We’re all rooting for you and need you. Don't let yourself feel alone at any step of the way, in our thoughts and hearts , we are with you . We believe in you. You have to believe in you, too.

And in time ( it would take a while, but one day) , you will gradually notice that there are more good days than bad ones , I understand how much impossible that might seem sometimes. It's okay if you feel so now too. Because it's human. But hold in there okay ? Because you do have reason to hope. Because you are amazing , aaand unlike what life makes us believe, we have the strength to smile again , fully , till our face hurts .

Thank you for reading this

Signed ,

your friend, your peer