feeling kind of lost and/or stuck
I'm in a little bit of a predicament; I need a new car but I don't necessarily want a new one right now, and I want to go to photography school. But there is almost no way I can pay for both of those things at the same time. It would take at least six months to save up enough money to afford to pay the tuition in full, or I can make payments but thats more expensive, and it would take almost a year to pay off a car. Either way i'd be putting off school for even longer, and either way I would be buying a car eventually. But since I dont know how much longer my car is going to last, getting a new car sounds like the best option. But also going to school for something I love sounds like a good option. I dont know what to do. And I dont want to do something thats going to make other people happy and not necessarily make me happy. I think doing this school thing would make me happy, and I think getting a new car could make happy because I would hopefully be less paranoid that my car will breakdown at anytime. I dont really want to take a chance and have this potential car be sold before I could make decision and then have my car die forever and not have an option right under my nose. But I also need to do something with my life or at least have a plan and not just sit here (school). I feel like either way id be winning but also losing, winning cause I get the thing I want/need but losing cause im not getting the other thing I want/need. That sounds kinda pretentious but I hope someone understands where im coming from. So yeah I feel kinda lost because I dont know what to do and im kinda stuck in this rut of not knowing what to do and not taking action. And I don't really have anyone to talk to about this who could at least try and help me, or try to give me advice, so i'm posting it to get it off my chest.
I hope everyone is having a good day :)