Living for urself (no close friends)
hello ppl
Hello jello
Hello plant
Hello whatever else
Last week: surviving n getting thru each day w loneliness
This week: the same thing is back except that I’m observing aloneness more tho it hits on me afterwards anyway
We aint wanna live out lives like: just getting thru each day forever🥲🥲🥲
One day at time until u forgot how actually live instead of just be n existing cuz u too much into protection n energy into how to make this out n when they comes to end ur like oh finally got it…..
But ppl where is our awesome super shiny living?
🙏🏻🥲
World just goes on n u try to fit in ur shoe there again n keep on going the same cuz once u lose the pace who cares where ur now if u left behind or not..?
Just trying to get outta get probably won’t be that enough…
I find learning new things each day n distraction the best not to look in direction of pain. No one cares anyway. Ur on ur own. This is my life without close or any friends actually. U see how ppl took u for granted, took advantage n never rly value u enough. It’s just sad. Even if u express urself, they only get defensive.
U just gotta pick it urself all up n live for yourself AGAIN.
@livbinny that's right the only person we can ever fully rely on is ourselves, it's sad but true. Getting out of a rut is not an easy thing to do, and doing it alone feels almost impossible at times. I find it very brave/strong that you write here all your true thoughts and feelings ❤ I hope one-day life will be good again.. You never know what's just around the corner ❤
Honestly, I don’t have a problem at all, but I just get suddenly so unwell and sad or I just wake up with like oh but no one is here. No I would care what you do how you feel and I always been a giver so people like used to me so I have no problem with being too open. Actually, it comes very easy to me but I don’t have much places or spaces where I can like. Put my total out then at least I wanna be hurt somewhere so I don’t really keep a diary. I actually just copy this post what I write here I copied into my diary and all because I just honestly we have to be hurt somewhere because when you feel this invisible and not seeing that like it’s just a hardest like we must put it somewhere. Thanks for the wishes I know about this will ever get better, but at least we are here together in get well soon.
@livbinny we are all in this together ❤ and yeah I'm a very open person to, I haven't got anything to hide, so that makes the 2 of us 🙂 lonliness is one of the hardest things to go through 🙁 and yet with so many people in this world, I often wonder how can we let so many people go lonely. It's kinda heartbreaking😥 just let me know if there's anything I can do to help ❤❤ hugs you tightly ❤
They leave, they ghost, they ditch. So far not a single person stayed in my life for me. I’m so tired. No one to talk to or play games with… so far what helps me is not to fear my own loneliness….i just can’t get away w my self pity…..nothing seems to work for that… :(
I hope u can get out of it soon too tho~
appreciate it
@livbinny that's sad🙁 I wish you meet a good friend soon. It's hard to know who to trust though🙁 is there any hobbies you have? I dream of becoming a explorer😁 but it's just a dream 🙂 maybe one day soon things will start getting better ❤
I do but due to family reasons I keep them to myself.
not a world can see either…
I rly wanna share my piece of knowledge n work out there too
usually music n art
Good luck w space journey!
respect for astronauts
one day someday as they say
I started to believe now that only time heals everything
u?
@livbinny I'm not sure about time heals everything, but it definitely gets better 🙂 ❤ only death will heal the pain, that I lost my son😥 but I like to do art and craft 😁
@Tinywhisper11 I painted theese just before my surgery 😁❤ do you get lonely this time of year, with all the festivities?? Do you ever wish your family was here with you?
It’s an every day companion
nothing much changes tho when I’m unwell it gets more isolating or when I’m tired like u can relate
nice art
i mean if it helps to connect w their souls
then it works🙏🏻
@livbinny yeah lonliness sucks 🙁 I get lonely, I'm lonely now, I've been in the hospital two weeks now🙁 my carers have visited a few times. I'm only 24 but I live in a old folks nursing home. So I have company, but I keep myself to myself there's only 12 residents including me. They all go home to their kids or grandkids houses for the holidays ❤ which is really great, I'm glad they have thay, but yeah the quietness can be to much. I have 3 pet guinea pigs to keep me company though😁 so yeah I'm not completely alone like you are, but I understand as much as possible. Do you have any pets??
Yeah that’s smarter to focus on what u have
They tell me same to practice w boundaries n to remind myself the stuff so I won’t get back in old ways n to grow from it
but can’t deny pain
I get what u mean
i feel same around my cousin having such good mom n etc
or neighbors all happy w company but me
that’s life, didn’t choose but still got
I have plushies that counts, but as u say, ur Guinea pigs are ur family!! I love those animals. Glad for u!
Idk tho…. I meant that all the coping in the world seems pointless at stage of nothing but same cycle of emotional burden coming over yk?
I even get self pity cuz I never had enough comfort n now I should draw? It doesn’t help me as much
i just vent
so far it seems to work the most
coping in general
it’s just exhausting if u get me….
get well soon after hospital🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻
@livbinny
Hellooo, how are you ?
Just pondering how some ppl have someone to turn to fr n some not but guess I’m getting used to it again after being hurt
@livbinny
Hey, sorry I reply late. I can be that someone you can count on if you want, you want me to be someone you can turn to?
Have an amazing day
That would be good. Are u à listener?
@livbinny
Yes, i am. It will be my pleasure
sadly it doesn’t let me write u …but just wanted to let y know that it began to be harder, still in bed, having some mild pains n mentally alsp very overwhelmed due to kept privacy in my fam n the issues so I’m trying not be so let down by my fears n anxieties …the thoughts make me sad n I’m not trying to push this sadness away but it gets me very tired n it is hard…. 🙏🏻🥺❤️🩹🤞🏻😭