Life....
Life feels like it sucks for me at the moment. I haven't managed to find a ounce of happiness living with my parents at 20. I am planning to move out for sure, but don't know when, because well, I was dealing with the cost of college, and i dont have that much money to rent an apartment. I am also lazy, I admit that. I lost my motivation to even put in half the effort to become more independent. I constantly compare myself to my family friends, because they are hustling honestly. I know nothing comes out of comparing myself, but i cant help it. Im that type of person. Im not willing to try over and over again if i dont see results immediately, and i have no energy to deal with more failure in my life. I have no direction in what i should do. Im so lost honestly, and i cant tell anyone about it because ive tried and they dont really understand. Todays world is just too much for me sometimes, but I also dont want to give up immediately. Im really struggling, and I just want to keep venting about it lol.