In pain and without anything else to say

If you can, kindly keep me in your thoughts.

its really hard to be comforting yourself and making sure you’re alright when all gets hard and scary and you’re really afraid but at the same time you must keep yourself strong enough to do this again on your own, no one to comfort or encourage me or listen or help me it’s really hard people, I’m in bed, I’m sleeping and trying to be awake, this hour just pain and waiting for my stomach to calm down from being all nauseous because my lower back hurts my legs hurt it’s a lot at once and my thing and issue with painkillers is that theyre me really really of 100% relief, and also the fact HOW LONG it takes to you know work, that’s crazy that’s a lot. Then as I also have anxiety and derealization and intrusive thoughts its harder to keep yourself mentally stable although I’m calm and collected person, I still get to feel this fear.

i know it’s essential to be here for yourself 24:7 with compassion and acceptance but it’s also difficult to maintain and navigate when all you feel is pain and afraideness and how the lack of care from my family just reflects the most, it’s disheartening, it’s really sad.

thank you for reading, we get with this pain one hour at time….