1 week since Liams passing

Its been a week since liams passing and I took it far harder than I thought I would

I've cried every day since and its just really hard to describe 

I didnt know him personally at all but he passed in such a tragic way and was begging for help and it feels like he was failed in so meany ways

The more I learn about his passing the more I feel like it could and should have been prevented

I've also been thinking about how he and the others were treated in 1D and after and I came to the realization that they were prisoners to fame that some members put them in

During there formative years they couldn't do anything because of the fear of mobs and I feel myself morning an adelences they should of had

Im not even 100% certain this is what it really is, I just keep finding myself hurting for him and the amount of pain he must of been in maybe I realte to the pain and wish he didn't have to feel it

Im not sure, but I cried non stop for days and now im just sad maybe numb and it hits me at random times

It's weird because I have lost people in my life and I had not cried for them but here I am uncontrollably crying over someone ive never met

When will it get better, when does the pain stop, am I crazy to feel this way

I also want to note that I know he is not a perfect person but it still hurts