I need help finding work, been out of a job for two years.

Hi all, I'm trying to find a job and a lot of my woes in life currently are from simply not having one. Please listen to my story and see how I have gotten to this point.

I graduated college with my bachelors in computer science in 2012, and I was afraid to get into the world, asalotof the things around me were not looking positive. At the time, I was a caretaker for my grandfather, as since 2010 when my grandmother passed I dedicated myself to his aid to make sure he wouldn't be alone. The fear of losing him was feeling more real by 2012 as his body and activeness began to slow to a snailpace, But I kept pushing forward trying to better his life and my own while I searched for a job.

It wasn't until 2013 when I finally got a hit, it was contract work and the pay was good. I really enjoyed organizing the company?s data sheets and editing them into a more professional appearance. As the contract ended a month later they had me make templates of my work so one of their current workers could do my job and we parted ways. I was feeling that empty sinking feeling once more while I hunted for another job, which I got in Octoberof 2013, but...complications arose.

The job in question was a web manager position, where the company put me in charge of their three websites they owned and expected miracles of me in short timeframes. I had explained to the boss that I wasn't superproficientin word press, but I could figure it out if given enough time. He agreed to hire me for $10 an hour, as I got to work. I actually felt my education mattered for the first time at this job as I put all my training to the test. After two weeks of dailyprogress reports, I finally began making improvements in the major areas that the owner wanted me to make, then it happened.

A few days before Black Friday, a person higher up than me, but not the boss asked me to make a printable coupon sheet for the event. It didn't take me long to make the first variant and submit it back, but when they said they wished for images to be on the coupons from the inventory they had online, it took me a bit longer to finish, but I completed the task. it only took three hours, but I went back to work on the site for the rest of the 6 hour work day and submitted my daily reports. 5minutespassed and the boss called me, saying "what the hell do you think you're doing?!" I was confused as the email Ireceivedsaid the boss wanted this done, but the man decided to tear me a new one, yelling at me on how I'm not getting paid for those three hours and if not for that email I would have been fired. The boss wouldn?t even listen to my reasons for doing the job I thought he wanted done at first, completely ignoring any sort of decency I was trying with him, even my apologies for the mistake wouldn?t even be accepted as he threw them back into my face.

I was at the mercy of this man so much as I felt expendable that I had to resign my position. I felt utterly abused verbally, and then the man takes it a step further and decides to call me a Pre-Madonna and began to question my own self worth. Saying things like ?do you think you even deserve to be paid the full pay rate of $20 as someone in your field.? That felt like a red herring argument at the time as I felt this boss wouldn?t listen to reason, nor care about his employees, so after the discussion I felt worthless and back looking for a job.

In 2014, I fell into depression as my sense of self worth felt less than zero. My grandfather?s health conditions were becoming more severe and I was faced with an impossible choice. I could have gone for a job, and left my grandfather to his own devices, or dedicate myself wholly to him, forgoing work for the whole year. I felt in my heart that finding a job was the most important thing for long term, but I just couldn?t leave my grandfather alone. I spent the entirety of 2014 as his caretaker, falling deeper into depression as I feared his passing was coming and I couldn?t do anything to stop it. By the end of 2014, I felt worn out, mentally and physically as it took all I had to keep it together as my grandfather was homebound, unable to simply walk down the hallway by him being able to handle anything he used to be able to do on his own.

Eventually my spirit broke and my mother and I couldn?t keep up with his needs any longer as we had to hospitalize him the day after Christmas. He spent the last month of his life in there until January 2015 when he passed on. So here I am now in 2015, no job, no grandfather, still battling with depression, Still on occasion questioning my own self worth, but still able to be proud in all I did to keep that man alive as long as I did. I loved my grandfather, and vise versa.

I?m sorry for the long read, but my tale spanned across 6 years of my life as nowadays I?m dedicating all my time and energy to try to get back out into the world and get out of this depression. I would honestly love any help I could get when it comes to finding a job, as at the end of the month I run out of insurance. I live in Alexandria, Virginia so if you know of any place where I could handle a simple desk job as my physical health makes it difficult to stand on my feet for long hours. I would be more than happy to give it my all for that job. Thank you all for reading my tale, and I hope you all have a nice day.