I wish I could tell everybody that...

I wish that I would tell everybody what I actually meant when I talked. Instead of answering with "sure, I'm fine" or "today's been so fun" it would accepted from me to respond with "well the voices' in my head won't leave me alone today" or "actually I was terrified; there where too many people there." Being honest like that would feel so good after so long of pretending that I'm fine.

I wish u could tell everybody that I'm hurting/broken/depressed so bad inside of me after the break up of my 10 year relationship, that she couldn't handle or understand me with my anxiety or why I have it and why I don't want to be around people why I was with drawn from people but I had to be there for 10 years of her epilepsy sitting through all that cause I love her so much..it not easy living a life with anxiety/stress/ worried about everything u do.. Cause feels like u don't make anyone happy

I wish I could tell everyone that I'm truly unhappy. That I want more than they thought. That I'm never going to live up to their standards and that their words hurt me so much.

I wish that I could tell everybody that I am not a perv like they say I am, but that I need help getting out of my addiction because I am broken, lost and alone.

I'm not okay. And instead of freaking out and trying to fix me they would just hug me and tell me they care and love me

I was raped a year ago by someone I thought was a friend. It took me months to even accept that it was actually rape because the details sounded iffy even to me, let alone a cop. That's why I never reported it. First my cousin molests me on my 9th birthday. Then, a guy stalks me my sophomore year of college for two weeks after kissing me when I didn't want it. Then he tries getting into my car when I walked alone. Then I get into an abusive relationship where he manipulated me into doing him sexual favors in exchange for his affection. Then I'm raped. It makes me feel like I have some sort of target painted on my forehead saying "please, come violate my body. Everyone else has already, so why not?" I'm always angry. I'm always thinking I can fix things with sex because it's what I've become accustomed to, and it makes me feel horrible about myself. Only 4 people know about the rape, one of them being my therapist. I'm just so tired of feeling disgusted of myself. I'm tired of always being scared of a man looking at me. I'm scared that one day I'll freak out again when my amazing boyfriend touches me one day and I have a flashback to any of those moments. I'm scared. And I'm tired of it.

i loved them. so much. but i had to let them go. not everyone knows about them and i want to tell them all i was in love with them, but now it's pointless. they don't even talk to me anymore. i cant tell everyone i love them even though we broke up.

I wish I could tell everybody that I've tried to commit suicide. And that I'm not okay.

im loaded loaded means i have way too much going on its hatred frommy dad and also i have no support and i been under a lot of fear shaking myself and having anixety stress for a very long time it continues to process and grow and it continues to grow grow grow and when is someone going to start coming forward and talking to me it sucks now i have to wait march 13th to see my therapist and i am on the waitlist and i need someone anyone anybody to talk to me

im also afraid to sleep at night always have and if someone sees is message message me please

I'm demigender/agender.