I wish I could tell everybody that...
I'm gay, and I cant apologize for being just who I am. Yeah, I don't look that good, but yes, I think even I deserve love, I deserve to be loved, I deserve to be someone's special person. I wish I could tell everyone that though I act like I'm very happy and content with my life, but it's all fake. I'm not happy, I'm not satisfied with my life at all, I'm all alone. Though for the namesake, I may have 'besties', but just because of the fact that they're straight, I just can't be open to them, and moreover, living in a society like mine, it's so much difficult to find a gay person, because we are still forced to believe that there's something wrong in us, that we are not what the nature wants. But I personally do not feel as that. And something that feels so right, how can it be wrong? I don't know, it's just that I want an end to all of this. I want an end to all this social stigma that surrounds people like me, I want myself to feel proud of my identity, but I just can't. Today when I see my pictures from my childhood, I feel so guilty, I dont know why, but I just feel like- who knew that this guy would grow up to be like this? Who knew that this person would bring such shame to his parents? I always avoid any childhood memories because they always make me feel so guilty, just for who I am.
@hellome99887
It is your parents who bring shame upon themselves and the rest of their family for not accepting all of it's members as they came into this world.
@hellome99887
Also I accept who you are and all you identify as.
I am heartbroken because I am getting over someone that I thought was my soul mate.
That I am not always strong, when I am sick, ( which is about 1 time every other year) I would like someone to take care of me, but no one seems to care!
@jr50 That is pretty rough when you realize you would like someone to be there for you. ..care for you ...snd no one is. I feel you. ...it makes everything that much harder on you. Even a call to help lift you up is huge. Big hug out to you.💟.
@ivoryBunny7465. Thank you for your kindness and understanding
@jr50 You're welcome- just know there are people who care for you- I care💟. It's always in our times of such low periods we forget this because we need such support. xx
@ivoryBunny7465. That is so true, and know that your support has made me feel Lil better
I wish I could tell everyone that all I think about is how stupid I am for my past mistakes/regrets and the mistakes I might make in the future. I don't remember what it's like not to feel anxious 98.9% of the time, and I can't even tell when I should or shouldn't feelt anxious/guilty/worried anymore. I'm afraid that no matter how hard I try to do better, it's no good because I've heard people say that "people can't change." I wish I could tell people to stop asking what's wrong, because I'm afraid they'll hate me for the real, complicated, answer. And that makes me feel selfish.
I feel the exact same... thank you for sharing <3 @fairmindedNest2369
@fairmindedNest2369 me too.
I wish I could refer people to more quality online chat based suicide hotlines or crisis intervention which doesn't have claims of their services supporting hateful un-understanding ignorent practices such as "conversion therapy" because that sort of "therapy" can do more harm than good.
I'm not that strong. I don't have a clue how I do what I do. I'm tired and want to be taken care of too.
@purpleTriangle1764 Totally hear you. Seems we go until there's nothing left. Be kind on yourself....you are worthy of being cared for. Do something nice just for you. Read a book....take a nice bath....listen to your fav music...vurl up on the couch. Time for you. Big hugs of comfort for you.
I wish that I could tell everyone about Jesus. Also, that I need someone in my life. My son needs a life, too.
That I am a very tactile person although I have never had a physical relationship.
I wish i could tell everyone that i have anxiety, stresses about everything n some how it turns into depression .....
That I hate him, I hate that I hate him, I hate her for loving him, I hate him for making me hate her and I hate that he got my stuck in this big hole of hate.