I wish I could tell everybody that...

It takes a massive amount of strength to speak about your pain and you know what? You are the steel of the katana, you are rock, you are a diamond. You have so much more strength of will than you realise.

That I can talk and I love talking, but someone has to come to me first. That I have a problem starting conversations, but if I'm laconic at the beginning doesn't mean I hate them. That right now I NEED someone to talk to about little shits that cross my mind, but for that I need someone to talk to me first. Even if I'm reading or listening to music, please come talk to me, I won't bite, I won't send you away and maybe you will even enjoy my company, how great would that be!

That I'm genderfluid and that they have to ask my pronoun, not just assume it from the way I'm dressed.

Also, how frightened I am of mediocrity, of being just another stupid, ignorant brick in a wall.

I have a lot to say but don't know who and how to say it. I become nervous I don't want anyone to get mad at me. It sucks because I get anxious and get walked all over and I wish I could tell everyone I'm not who they think I am.

I am constantly struggling, even when I am smiling and seem really put together.

I'm sorry my mental illness makes me hard to be around. I'm sorry I have trust issues and can be aggressive. I'm really trying to get better.

I want to have kids so bad, but I don't want motherhood or my children to define who I am as a person.

I wish I could tell about my problems, but I'm so scared of everyone's reaction about my self-harm and these horrible thoughts. It's killing me inside.

Its not fair my parents act like i dont exist just because i dont cause them problems. Or that they treat my bf like a criminal when he actually takes care of me!

To tell people not judge people because there look or act different.