I wish I could tell everybody that...
I wish I could tell everybody that I am lonely,
@Brenvan72. Why are you lonely?
...that I want to be married already, to have another child and family with my fiance, that I am sick of being engaged now for 3 years. That I don't understand why he doesn't want to actually marry me after he begged for me to come back and proposed 3 times. That he lives an hour away, while my daughter and I live with my parents and older brother who help me take care of her. That my messed up family is not me. That I am sad that my 10 year old daughter is autistic. That I feel stuck waiting for him to rescue me from this situation. That I don't know how to rescue myself from this corner I have run myself into including: depending on my family, not being able to work for the thing I studied and went to school so many years for, that I lack the confidence and the ability to concentrate as my mind and time is so consumed with wondering how I can make any money to help my daughter and I out. That deep down now I just want to be independent without the mean words I have to endure every day living with my narcissistic mother. That I have a self-inflicted hurt heart from thinking I'll never be good enough for him to finally marry me as I've gained weight and am able to work any more than part time at a teaching job that pays me only $20k a year with no benefits. That I feel now that deep down he only proposed because he had broken up with me and wanted me back. That I have no idea how to be on my own with my daughter which her disabilities and seizures. That I'm afraid I'm 39.
@HelloRio888 I
am really sorry for what you have to go through. I don't want to sound cliche or religious but I really want you to put God first in life. No man can replace your maker. When God gives, he gives without taking something away from you. His blessing is overflowing. Take all your troubles to him . he listens and he will give you what you need according to his riches in glory.
Everything is going to be okay
That behind the smile and happy disposition, I'm depressed, self loathing, anxious, doubtful sad and lonely
Who lives in Singapore with me.
I wish I could tell everybody that behind my bright exterior, is a dark and depressed soul
@notmyproblem. You can say it out. Say it out feel better.
I wish I could tell everybody how unhappy I am with where my life is at the moment. How I feel that I have no reason to live and just want to end it all because I feel worthless and like nobody wants me.
I'm afraid
@mylifeaseva
Life is beautiful. However difficult it seems to be, you will get through this.
i'm not like what i seem to be at all, and i'm struggling to define myself
