I wish I could tell everybody that...

They're all annoying

Im insane xD

that I'm not ok and I'm hiding my pain.

"I want to tell my story and things that happened in my life but for me" ,:-( an many other people they can't tell anyone what happens in thier regular life, either cause people would think that I'm scary or scary ing them even though I'm not my life is just that Ican't explain it and sometimes I think people would' hate' me more if I tell them my life story. I want to share but it's hard when you have so much to risk, And if that person hasint gone through what u been though they would never understand. Theres just no way u can explain to them the stuggle you go through.:-\

@mylifeaseva

this it to all the people i have encountered:

that I may be strict/serious, emotionless and detach, brave and independent; well that doesnt mean or everyone should consider me as a robot, a future serial killer or a walking soldier (according to them). I still have feelings too, have you guys even noticed? Its just im having a hard time expressing it, im finding it a bit difficult. I get tired and exhausted too! At times I just want to scream my heart out for help, but i dont now how to without thinking that im huge bothersome. Strict/serious? cause it is needed, not all time i have to let loose, i need to restrain myself; cause if i do let loose there will be a tendency that i might actually hurt you in a physical and emotional way that i wouldnt be able to stop myself till im satisfied.

Im still a human being.

I wish I can tell everybody that I'm low -key depressed

@mylifeaseva that i'm depressed :(

I wish I could tell everybody that I'm not what they think I am. I'm not smart or strong or stable. The reality is that I am a complete idiot, I'm weak, I'm not stable, I have so many problems and everyone just sugarcoats me like oh she's perfect she has everything she is lucky... when really, I'M NOT LUCKY! Actually, YOU'RE lucky you don't have to suffer from all the fucking shit I do and I would be more than happy to take your place any fucking day!!

That I have multiple personality disorder.

I feel like there is something wrong with me