I wish I could tell everybody that...

that my weight doesn't matter

I am a million different people all in one and I want to be that openly.

I change all the time but every change is valid and don't stop taking me seriously just bc I change. It is bc I am constantly growing.

I am so angry at the christians who have judged and condemned me and I hate any teachings that lead to that kind of hatred.

I am smart. Just bc you don't see it doesn't mean I'm not. I have so much going on just trying to stay sane and heal from all I've gone through that I just don't have the time or energy to learn about everything. Neither do I have the time or energy to become a huge activist or to know every word out there that would prove me to be a good feminist or trans person. All I can deal with right now is what I am dealing with and I just don't have the energy for more. It doesn't make me dumb or air headed. I just can't talk to you about what is really in my mind bc it is too private. So please don't judge me when I laugh and act silly or whatever bc I am just trying to stay above water.

Im starting to wonder if I'm not really trans, but I'm afraid to say so bc I don't want people to see me as invalid.

I have social anxiety, Mum and Dad said something along the lines of, everyone gets nervous some times when you have to present for class...really guys?

omfg how do i change my profile pic?

I am so tired!

I'm trying the best I can , sure some days my best is lacking but you got to be patient with me.

I'm sick and tired of not being taken seriously and be treaten as a dumb kid. I'm a lot smarter than people imagine of me, just because I'm not at ease with people and act sometimes a bit weird doesn't make me stupid. And what I feel may not be as horrible and painful as some people unfortunately feel, but it's still hard to support.

I'm not the strong happy girl they think I am.

I know more about all of my faults better than anyone else and I am way harder on myself than anyone else could ever be.

I'm lonely, without coming across as desperate.