I wish I could tell everybody that...

I wish I can tell everyone that I am bisexual

I wish I could tell everyone that I feel hopeless and that their words and actions hurt

Even though I wear my emotions on my sleeve, I am not weak.

I wish I could tell my old highschool friends to quit flaking on me every time I invite them to do something and quit only inviting me to go clubbing when they know I don't like clubs. I want to tell them that the reason I'm still skinny is because I don't eat out all the time and I don't drink. So they need to quit making fun of my small size. I hate it whenever you tell people how you feel they'll tell you that it was just a joke and that you need to lighten up. I wish I could tell my family to quit forcing my niece onto me because she is not my responsibility and even though I don't hate her, I don't care for her as much as I probably should. Her parents, my sister and brother-in-law, need to be more responsible adults and actually think of the consequences of their actions and what effects they might have on people around them. I want them to quit acting like we're so close. They only want the image that we are and or want something from me or for me to do something for them and their friends. I want to tell them how I'm never moving back in with them because of all the crap they put me through. I wish I could tell my extended family to piss off because the only time they want to talk to me is when they want something from me or to tell them the whereabouts of my mother and ask only about my sister. I wish people would stop trying to get me to drink alcoholic beverages. I may be old enough to drink but that's not my lifestyle. I wish I could tell people that I was how suicidal I was around Christmas and New Years and that the only reason I didn't go through with it because the only one who actually needs me in their life is my dog. I wish I could tell everyone how much of a failure I feel and how it feels like I'm running out of time. I wish I could tell the people around me that I'm losing that emotional connection towards them and that I'm not ok.

I wish I can tell my ex how much I love him without him acting like it's such a bother. I wish I could tell his friends and family to fuck off. They don't like me? Fine. But quit trying to push me out of my ex's life. We're still friends. I wish I could tell my ex that I don't want him to date anyone, that I only want him and how much I want him to want me back and how much it hurts seeing him be with someone else. I wish I could tell him how terrible I feel seeing him with someone with more curves, a pretty face and a personality that makes him so happy. Wish I could tell him that I hate feeling so distant from him because we use to be so close. I wish I could tell him it feels like I will never love anyone as much as I do towards him and finding someone is highly unlikely.

I wish I can tell my boyfriend that I don't love him as much as I do my ex, how sometimes it feels like I don't love him the way he loves me. I wish I could tell him that I don't want to move in with him because that's too soon and I don't feel comfortable living with him. How he needs to quit thinking the only reason I don't want to move is so I can stay close to my family even though my family has nothing to do with it. I wish I can tell him to stop suggesting me to switch banks just because he works at one. The bank I have is fine. I want to tell him how I understand his different taste of music and art is but he needs to stop saying what I listen to isn't real music and that I need to draw other things besides cartoons (even though some of my art isn't intentionally cartoon). I wish I could tell him to stop chewing on his fingers because I find it disgusting even though it's a sign of his mental health. I want him to quit telling me to stop wearing chapstick because frankly, I do have a history of my lips cracking and bleeding when they get dry despite the amounts of water I drink. Even though it might be funny to him, making me mad or annoyed is not funny. It's exhausting. I want him to know that sometimes I need time to myself or to just relax. We don't have to do something every single day. I'm not mad at him but sometimes I need my space. I don't want a sexual relationship with him. Maybe it's because I'm still hung up on my ex, maybe because he tried to force himself onto me once, maybe I'm just normally not in the mood and too tired to do anything sexual or maybe I just don't want to do anything sexual with him. The reason I don't want to move in with him is because I don't want to do anything sexual with him and it's too soon in a relationship. I don't mind holding hands, hugging and cuddling but I don't want to kiss him because it usually leads to him wanting more.

I'm not a whore for having sex with my boyfriend. We both consented and are of legal age so stop judging us!

I GET IT! EVERYTHING, I GET IT ALL!

I hate how I feel

I wish I could tell everyone that I'm unhappy with my job without being met with, "well, at least it's better than not having job..." which is true, but I feel like I'm not getting anywhere, that there's very little room for growth, and that it's time to move on.

I can't control my depression.

I wish I could tell everybody that I need help, and that I don't enjoy being in my house all of the time and shut out of the world around me, but that I can't drive, and I could get into drama with my mom if I ask to go places,