I don't know what to do
Hope2come
November 16th, 2018
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I just want to tell someone real. someone who cares about me whome i know in real life. i want them to tell me its all going to be okay and that they can fix me.
I want to talk to someone and tell them that everytime i eat i feel like a failure. That every bite is so filled with so much shame and discust with myself. All i can think about is how discusting i am and even after ive thrown it up i just feel ashamed that i left myself eat it. that i havent been abel to get it all out that its still in me. I want them to know that sometimes I bindge to stop myself cutting to end the pain that i dont understand. I want someone to help me carry the pain thats how selfish i am. i just want it to all stop. i want my life back.