i have a rare eating disorder that no one takes seriously
i cant say as much as i want to say because im apparently "in crisis".
no one really knows that i have this eating disorder except for my mom, my dad, some ladies that worked at my school and a few psychiatrists. i never really eat in public and i never eat in school.
i have arfid along with ocd, bipolar 1 and autism and no one ever takes it seriously. people dont really know that i am aware that i am eating unhealthy, that i dont want to eat this way, and that i want to change how i am eating. i am trying my best and it is VERY hard.
there used to be a tv show called freaky eaters which exploited people with my disorder as freaks and spoiled brats (in fact my mom threatened to put me on that show when i was bad). my mom and my dad would always say that i would get diabetes and that i will end up being like my cousin who was deaf and blind and was always stuck to a breathing machine.
its probably the reason why DYFS had to make several visits to our house. its probably why my brothers hate me and its probably why they never really had a childhood. its probably why my dad developed schizophrenia and is probably why he is in prison. its probably why my mom never really talks to me anymore.
they tried almost every single therapy out there for me and nothing really worked. they eventually resorted to tough love but that didnt work either. my mom has given up on me and there is probably nothing we can do. ive tried several anti-depressants and several antipsychotics for my disorder but they didnt really work. the only thing they did was make me fatter. i dont really think there is hope at this point.
@dvf Yes, 7 Cups' unhelpful approach to "crisis" makes things more difficult for the very people whose lives are already the most difficult. And yes, changing how you eat is very hard to do.
I think a lot of people find, like you have, that antidepressants and antipsychotics don't work and just have bad side effects. It can also be really difficult to find an expert therapist who understands you and understands what to do to help you effectively, especially when other people around you are making things worse.
It's clear from what you've written here that a lot of things in your life have contributed to the situation you're in now. If you'd ever like to chat to me about things, feel free to click on my profile image and message me.
Charlie
I can relate. Every doctor I have ever gone to and I have told them I have binge eating disorder, they ask a few times to confirm that I am not restricting and purging. I have to say no, over and over, and I feel like they dont believe me. Its extremely frustrating.
I am seeing a dietician that specifically works with people with eating disorders... and she said that most of the people that come into the practice have binge eating disorder, and not bulemia and anorexia. She said its more common. I feel like anorexia and bulemia are only portrayed in movies and the media. Nobody EVER mentions binge eating disorder.
@dvf I don't wanna ask, but I don't understand you, so I will do it anyway. What is it you are eating, that you consider "freaky"?
@dvf
Your mom has zero value for me for trying to do that to you...threats are just going to make us more resiliant...your own mother threatening to put you on a show? I guess her hollow ego needs tv attention too... break away from all this toxic family environment...eat for need not for confort...if you overeat you become a greater victim...do you want to be manipulated forever? If you depend on somebody they manipulate you as they wish...envision a scenario when you have all the power and come down on them with revenge...yeah, you thought you could controll me? How about this now for a change!!!