AN relapse
GhostlyLilian
June 8th, 2023
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I feel childish. I feel irrational. I feel like I'm not really realising. But if I try to fight it I feel my whole body and mind repelling food. Even the amount I plan on eating I often don't finish. It doesn't taste like anything, it feels like a chore I don't want to do, it takes forever. Being empty feels so right, the sensation of shrinking feels awesome. I don't know how this is going to end and a huge part of me doesn't care. Ossessions over being sick thin are slowly starting to crowd my head and I know it's just a matter of time before they become all I can think about. I don't know.