My little disability space [TW]
Hi! My name is Avy. I'm 15 years old. Basically I am going to use this space to rant about pain, the affects of my disability, and weird little things about it no one notices.
Let me explain my story a little bit:
So in 2021 I was playing soccer and I got stepped on, and then stepped on again early 2022. I went to my doctor and she sent me to an orthopedic doctor. That was when the surgeon said he was surprised I hadn't been to see him sooner. Because of my injury I ended up with severe tendinitis and arthritis in my foot. I was sent to physical therapy. Through months of intense physical therapy 4 times a week and going to the surgeon every 3 weeks, he figured this out. I have naturally high arches, it runs in my family. But for some reason the tendons in my foot stopped growing when I was about 7. Which explains why my feet have always hurt. As I'm getting older and taller it's getting worse and one day the tendons in my feet will snap. I also have tri-pod foot (that's what he called it) from my heels being misaligned. Basically only 3 really small points on my feet ever touch the ground. Not even my toes 😨. I've gone through 2 pairs of inserts, I do physical therapy every dang day, and nothings working. Basically now my only option is surgery. Since I've been limping for 2 years my knee has been affected and so has my hips. This whole process has been really isolating and discouraging. I kind of just want it over.
Anyway lots of weird things happen so I'll share them here!
Hi, yall get a senseless little rant today
So from the outside I look like a perfectly capable person, when I'm not wearing my boot. But I'm not. I have a really really hard time standing up by myself sometimes. So when I'm in public I tend to use the handicap stalls, just so I can use the hand rail. Well today some lady literally glared at me and told me that I should save the stall for people who need it. I do need it tho. She made me feel so small and angry. It wasn't her place to say that. Then I unloaded the car by myself and I told my mom i should've brought my boot and she said it was just a grocery trip I need to grow up. It was like 4 hours of walking today 😞
I'm so tired of this
@AvyIsKing 😞😞😞😞 why doesn't your mum, have more sympathy towards her own daughter!!!!!! You deserve love and sympathy lots and lots of looking after. If I was taking you shopping I would make you sit in the kart and push you around, and not let you unload it carry those heavy bags. Damn! That woman. And that other woman had no right to say anything to you, or five you a dirty look. There are many silent dissabilities, as well as obvious ones. No one should comment on noone else. *** old woman! And a sinus infection! Nose, ears or throat??? Are you coming down with a cold?? How did band practice go??
@Tinywhisper11
i did get to push the cart which was good since I could lean on it (: idk my mom is insane. Yeah that lady was really mean, but I guess she does have a point. Like if it was between me and someone in a chair, obviously the person with the chair can use it. Its affecting my ears my nose and my throat ): my chest hurt really bad last night and I'm worried I could have pneumonia from being out in the cold rain. Band was good! I got to see my friend I haven't seen in 3 weeks. Me and my friends made jokes and I wasn't wearing my boot and people yelled at me 😂😂😂
@AvyIsKing I'm glad they yelled at you😁 but I'm glad you had fun. Yeah you need to get your chest looked at, it could be something antibiotics or steroids can sort out if you go early enough. So yeah! Get a doctor appointment soon. Pushing the kart looks quite fun😁 I'd rather sit in it though. Weeeeeeeee!
@Tinywhisper11
I had a dance last night and i wore my boot and everything went fine, except one time I tripped on my boot and fell, it was funny!
I woke up today and my lungs are at like half capacity (which I guess is how normal people breathe, i have really big strong lungs) but i feel like I'm drowning so i don't have to go to the cookie booth, I'm going to stay home, sit on my couch, watch my favorite show and work on some cups stuff (:
@AvyIsKing yes take it easy ❤❤ watch tv and sleep lots ❤❤
@tinywhisper11
I will I promise 
@AvyIsKing 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 that's right young lady you listen 😂😂😂😂😂😂
@Tinywhisper11
i feel so sick ): and i almost forgot to take my pain meds last night and i got in really bad pain again. my lungs just don't want to work on me i guess
@AvyIsKing please tell me your mum has rung the doctor??? It's sounds like a chest infection, hopefully nothing more serious than that. But you really need to be checked out and taking meds to help you with it. Order your mum to ring the doctor. How are you feeling now??
@Tinywhisper11
last night i took a bath and was feeling way better and my fever was gone, but this morning I am worse. Im just doing cough medicine and such, It mightnhelp?
@AvyIsKing I'm proud of you for coming on here and sharing your story and I relate to it so much as a teenager. I struggle with accepting my disability and it was incredibly hard and I felt as if reading your post made me go back into the days that I started blogging and I really felt connected to your post and I just want to say thank you for reminding me of my reason to keep advocating and helping those with disabilities
@Countrygirl095
awww anytime, im serious <3
if anyone can learn anything from my story then it has a reason and its worth it
first time in a while you guys get a humorous post
so sometimes my hands don't work and for some reason i think its funny to give people the peace sign like ✌️
well im left handed so i usually use my left hand for this and this past winter i bruised my pointer finger bone and that makes it extra super sensitive to my issues and everything
well i keep flipping people the bird xD
by accident i swear
or am i
@AvyIsKing 😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 that makes both of us ❤ by accident of course 👀👀😂😂😂😂😂 hugs you tightly ❤ is the cough medicine helping???? Hugs you tightly ❤❤
@Tinywhisper11
huggsss, a little
@AvyIsKing if your not any better today then please call the doctor
@Tinywhisper11
i love the pfp!! sorry i just woke up! feeling way better but stil got a stupid fever which means if it isn't gone tomorrow i cant go to band ):
@AvyIsKing oh its saturday now. Did you get to go to band practice??? How are you feeling now? And thanks ❤ I'm just showing of my wavy hair😁😁 how's the new bunny doing? I hope your over the flu. Hugs you tightly ❤
@AvyIsKing That sounds really tough. Getting injured can be a big setback, especially when it affects something you like for example soccer. It's good that you went to see a doctor, but I fely sorry when they say you should have come sooner. Dealing with severe tendinitis and arthritis must have been really painful and frustrating. Hopefully, the physical therapy helps you get back on your feet soon.
@tinywhisper11
I didn't get to go to band ): I feel way way way way better now! I'm going to go sell girl scout cookies in the mall in a bit and I'm excited (: the new bunny is amazing! She loves it here so much, she gets to run and play whenever she wants! I love your wavy hair!! You are so pretty 🥺🥺
@AvyIsKing yay! I'm glad your feeling better ❤❤ sorry about band practice though😞 can I have cookies?? I get half price for being your friend and a disabled discount on top of that😁 and yay baby bunny is happy ❤❤❤ I love you ❤
@Tinywhisper11
Of course you can heheh 🤭🤭🤭
@AvyIsKing yaaaaay! Free cookies😁😁❤
@Tinywhisper11
I was just playing with gwen, she isn't sweet like jeffy ): I
@AvyIsKing awww I don't think you could ever find one as sweet as jeffy ❤❤ but give gwen some time, she'll be fun to play with too ❤❤
@tinywhisper11 she just wanted to go and run! Jeffy is more a snuggly boy 🤭🤭
@AvyIsKing awwww she's a playful one ❤❤❤and yes that's cause jeffy is the bestest bunny who lives you verrryyyy much ❤ how did the selling cookies go?? How are you feeling?
@Tinywhisper11
it went amazing, me and my sister and our friend sold 233 boxes!! Im very sore! Some guy saw my boot and how I was struggling to sit there and I was like very very much in pain and he asked me "now did you really break your foot or is it a ploy to sell more cookies?" I said "aha I need reconstructive surgery" for some reason it made my day 🤭🤭🤭
@AvyIsKing awww your a real sweetheart ❤ are your pain levels ok at the moment? That's amazing😍 that's so many cookies😮😮😮 you should of our laxatives in them😂😂😂😂
@Tinywhisper11
pain is really really intense today. i woke up on the verge of tears just trying to move my legs, let alone stand. my mom said i could go back to bed, that it was okay. sometimes the best thing is to just sleep through it. then she came in like an hour later screaming at me to get my *** out of bed and how she wanted to go on a hike today and now we cant go (i don't want to hike its like 4 miles, too much pain) and she told me if i was in the real world and pulled this crap there would be consequences (i really wanted to tell her that if i had a job my boss would be well aware of my condition and they would know i would only call out on the most intense days, and i would've called them and asked to come in late/unpaid miss work day) she took my phone for the day and said that i need to be punished. my sister is also grounded because she over-slept half an hour? we are exhausted she is over-working us.
i miss my boyfriend
@AvyIsKing yep I'm pretty sure any boss would be more understanding and sympathetic than your mum. A giraffe would probably be more sympathetic. When your in pain you can't be going on a hike. And yep! Sleep is the best medicine, my pain levels shoot up as the day goes on, when it gets to the unbearable stage then I can't wait to lie down then and just sleep through it. I'm sorry you miss your boyfriend😥 I never dated before, so I'm not sure what it's like it how to comfort you best. But hey you had fun with him right? So have fun with the next one too, but don't be too quick to fall in love. And oneday your Prince will come and take you away from the evil mother and you'll live happily ever after ❤❤ princess avy ❤❤
@tinywhisper11 yep! Just waiting for my prince ❤️❤️ I only woke up half an hour late so I only get my phone taken for 30 minutes (: I'm super proud of myself
Hey! A good update this time!!! I'm having a really really bad pain day, I'm super inflamed and my blood flow isn't good.
but I went on that hike, and I was able to put my feet in the freezing cold water and it felt so good!!! I ended up sitting in the water just letting itrun all over my legs and after I didn't feel any pain for the first time in a while! I'm sore now but that's because I need my meds lol
@AvyIsKing well done ❤❤cold water hey🤔🤔 you know in the summer I have a cold shower every morning and it makes me feel so good. Screw meds, let's go live next to a giant waterfall😁 ❤❤
My knee hurts so bad and it isn't getting better and I was up all night crying and I'm having an emotionally bad day and I just want the pain over