My little disability space [TW]
Hi! My name is Avy. I'm 15 years old. Basically I am going to use this space to rant about pain, the affects of my disability, and weird little things about it no one notices.
Let me explain my story a little bit:
So in 2021 I was playing soccer and I got stepped on, and then stepped on again early 2022. I went to my doctor and she sent me to an orthopedic doctor. That was when the surgeon said he was surprised I hadn't been to see him sooner. Because of my injury I ended up with severe tendinitis and arthritis in my foot. I was sent to physical therapy. Through months of intense physical therapy 4 times a week and going to the surgeon every 3 weeks, he figured this out. I have naturally high arches, it runs in my family. But for some reason the tendons in my foot stopped growing when I was about 7. Which explains why my feet have always hurt. As I'm getting older and taller it's getting worse and one day the tendons in my feet will snap. I also have tri-pod foot (that's what he called it) from my heels being misaligned. Basically only 3 really small points on my feet ever touch the ground. Not even my toes 😨. I've gone through 2 pairs of inserts, I do physical therapy every dang day, and nothings working. Basically now my only option is surgery. Since I've been limping for 2 years my knee has been affected and so has my hips. This whole process has been really isolating and discouraging. I kind of just want it over.
Anyway lots of weird things happen so I'll share them here!
Wheeeee im home!! Gah i had so much fun! Like it was so amazing!! im going to write something positive up to post in a different forum (cant use my corner because its teen only and I wanna share with lola) I'm exhausted so just a teenie tiny little rant
I hate my boot, its causing more pain than good, and my new high strength anti inflammatory/pain med isn't working
@AvyIsKing did you have fun?? Your cream didn't work😞 that's not good, and your boot. Perhaps they didn't make it right for your foot. I'll look at your other post in a minut e. I've actually not been in here till last night, I've been ill and not able to use the computer, but I'm all good now 😁❤ I want to hear all about your trip?? Gives you a giant tiny hug ❤❤
@Tinywhisper11 hugsssss ❤️❤️ I was getting worried, im so glad you are feeling better. My trip was amazing! SInce I've come home things haven't been great. Me and my boyfriend are taking a break 😪 I've also had some home life issues and things with friends and things are just nkt great right now. I might get to see my bf today tho, at a girl scout function. I missed you, I love you
@AvyIsKing I love you too ❤ oh no, I hope you get to talk it through with your bf😥 and I'm sorry things are hard for you right now. Gives you the biggest tiny hug evvver ❤ how's your health since you got back? I'm here for you, if you need me ❤ I love you ❤
@Tinywhisper11 i love you too. My health hasnt been great but I'm taking each day as it comes. Also my test is scheduled for may 14th, it may be sooner if there is a cancellation
@AvyIsKing oh let's pray for sooner, I hate the fact your in so much pain. I know how hard it is, bless you. I really hope they can make you better. But it's only a month away, so yes take each day as it comes, everything will be ok ❤❤ how was girl scouts?? Did you see your bf? It's ok if you don't want to talk about it. I just worry about you , cause I love you ❤❤ gives you tight hugs ❤❤
@tinywhisper11
girl scouts was fun i guess, I was running the event, and was really spaced out. Pain was unbearable today. And I talked to my boyfriend, he said he still needs time. i sent him a long and considerate text and he said nothing in regards to me. i had so much faith in him too. Idk, people really hurt. Hes used me and moved on just like everyone ever. And my mom is getting more and more violent, and I'm just so tired 😞
I love you too, and I hope u know u can tell me anything
@AvyIsKing awww I'm sorry sweetie 😞 boys are stinky pants. Hugs you tightly ❤❤ your mum's being vio!ent again😞 your having such a hard time, my heart ❤ really goes out to you ❤❤ one day soon, you will be free and able to do whatever you want, and you'll live a life fit for a princess ❤ I love you ❤
@Tinywhisper11
I love you too ❤ I can't wait to leave all of this behind, the pain, my family, just everything. I'll be 16 in a month and 8 days, so then I can begin my 2 year countdown. I might be coming to the UK for uni, I just gotta get far away from here
@AvyIsKing 😞 hugs you tightly, I wish I could keep you safe
@Tinywhisper11
i wish I could keep you safe. i had a good cry, and I'm feeling a little better
@AvyIsKing crying is good for you ❤ I've been doing a lot of that lately to. But it's all gonna be ok ❤ we are both gonna be ok ❤❤ it's moments like this that I wish I was a cowboy(cowgirl) and I could jump on my horse and ride of into the sunset with out a worry in the world ❤
@AvyIsKing don't worry I already got you a cowboy outfit and a horse named braveheart ❤ there's even a tiny horse ready for jeffy😁
@Tinywhisper11
yessssss (: jeffy will love to come with !
@AvyIsKing how are you feeling today? ❤❤
@Tinywhisper11
Sorry I never replied 🥲 having a rough couple days. I'm at my grandparents right now, I am just about ready to go to a birthday party and then to deliver cookies. It's going to be a busy day 😴 I'll sleep in the car hehe 🥺 I think I'm more just dreading tomorrow 😞 it's my bad exes birthday and I also have to see my brother 😞❤
@AvyIsKing I'm here if you need me ❤
@AvyIsKing I'm not surprised you had some emotional issues today 😞 your pain levels are high today? Try get some rest ❤❤hopefully tommorow will be a better day ❤❤ gives you a giant tiny hug ❤❤ I love you
@Tinywhisper11
i just woke up from a nap. Since our timezones are different, the scary day starts in about 8 hours its almost 11pm here. I was just blaring music and a triggering song came on that I love but idk, I guess I'm more fragile then I look.
My mom hinted today like she wants me to have a kid 😞
@AvyIsKing oh sad songs😥 yeah they will bring you down. You don't have to be strong, not all the time. Your allowed to be vulnerable, allowed to feel ❤❤ but I know deep inside is a warrior than can never be broken ❤ and what!!!!!!!! Your 15 🤔🤔 or 16 you shouldn't even have to think about having a child for like another 10 years and then only if you want to, not cause your mum wants you to. That's crazy. I'm sorry sweetie I know she's your mum, but I don't like that woman. And here's a tip, pretend to be ill or not able to wake up, so you don't have to face today.😉 otherwise God bless you, you are a much better person than I am ❤ I'm right here for you, if you need m e or need to vent . I love you ❤
@Tinywhisper11
i love you too ❤️❤️🥺🥺 your kind words mean sosos much.
And I did try but I have church in a bit so I got yelled at 😞
and dw I don't like my mum either
@AvyIsKing 😞 if I was healthy and I'm a different posistion I would come and steal you and your sister and jeffy, and we would get you healthy and live a life full of only fun and smiles. If you ever get in a position where your frightened, please please call the police. I know you don't want to and it's the last option, but if you are frightened for your safety please call for backup ok?
@Tinywhisper11
that would be amazing, and i will I promise. Oh we are getting a new bunny! He is 3, he is smaller than jeffy, he's all black. My sister wants to name him Darwin or Nico, I want her to name him Will Smith :p we are getting him tomorrow, so ill post a picture.
Yesterday was honestly the hardest day I've had in a really really long time. We went out to eat and I was taking my meds and my brother told me I've never actually felt real pain. That hit me different. We had a few issues of him berating me, but it went okay. My cousin is here and her and I just talked for hours. Like we just talked about life. I told her I needed help with my boyfriend and she helped and I texted him and we are awaiting a reply. She then knew it was my exs bday, because I thanked her. Then me and my mom got in a really really bad fight. I asked her if maybe she could drop me off halfway through errands because of my foot, because I'm really sekf conscious about my boot and hurting and all of that. She told me to grow up and get over it and not to interrupt private conversations, even tho it was me her andmy sister just sitting there. She made me cry and then decided all of this is my boyfriends fault. That stung 😞
@AvyIsKing I'm so sorry sweetie 😞 is it ok if I add your mother to my hit list??😈 I'm glad you had your cousin there ❤❤ ignore all the stupid statement s your mum and brother made, they don't know what their talking about. A new bunny for your sister awwww ❤ yaaay! Yep will Smith sounds good😂😂😂😂😂😂 hugs you tightly ❤ I hope you get to relax now for a few days, stay of that foot. ❤❤❤
@Tinywhisper11
Totally add her >:) it's my grandma's birthday so we are at the mall, lots of walking
@AvyIsKing pop to the toilet and just sit there for a hour to rest ❤ happy birthday avis grandma. Hope you get to relax soon ❤
@Tinywhisper11
I'm in the car on the way back to Tennessee, so I get to sit all day :)
Me and my boyfriend just broke up officially but it was mutual and so respectful honestly. Like we both love each other he just needs to be a kid and I'm not in that place right now
@AvyIsKing you live in tennesse??😮😮😮 like where Dolly parton lived???😮😮😮 I'm glad you broke up with your boyfriend in a nice way ❤❤ but please please start dating real cowboys, that would be so cool😍
@AvyIsKing awwww you need to get a alvin and simon ❤❤ you know some cowboys 😍 I am so not jealous 😩😩😩😩😩😩😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 ok next things to do number 1) get better ❤ number2) marry a cowboy, and live on a ranch😁
@Tinywhisper11
Theodore is actually a girl (thank heaven we noticed before we introduced her to jeffy, who is un nutured) so her new name is Gwendolyn 🤭🤭
Also my knee swelled today 🥲
@AvyIsKing Gwendolyn I've never heard that name before. And yep good job you noticed😂😂😂 your knee is swollen😥 the more you report and complain about theese things to the doctors, the quicker they will help you. I hope your mum called the doctor. Is it really painful?😞 are you resting? Please look after yourself ❤
@Tinywhisper11
awww, we are calling her Gwen for short. I didn't tell the doctor, but its a normal symptom. It just gets all stiff and painful and puffy, and I walked up stairs with it like that 😅 its okay now, the same thing happened with my elbow last night and it locked upn
@AvyIsKing awww bless you ❤ I hope this operation hurries up, and I really hope it fixes all or most of your health issues. Your incredibly strong, I'm so proud of you ❤ please just relax this weekend hugs you tightly ❤❤
@tinywhisper11
I just had the booth, I'm in so much pain I'm aboit to cry. Huggsss unfortunately I have a really busy weekend, with a dance and a booth sale. I can rest Monday Tuesday. Operation is looking at June or July 😞 my mom got me fried pickles tho and I love those so much
@AvyIsKing my poor lil friend😞 only do what you can ❤❤ try and sit down and dance at the dance. Hugs you gently, and blows a protective bubble around you do you won't be in so much pain ❤❤