It just doesnt feel the same anymore...and i know it isnt just me
This place just doesnt feel the same....only this week ive went through MANY listeners and many left me on the half of the convo...ive been having bad thoughts this month and i asked x help here and at my enviroment...but it seems like nobody cares anymore..and i really feel like a burden
My family would say that the person that i hate the most its my dad...but it isnt true...i need to look at the mirror to know the right answer
But today i had my nieces coming at my house and that made me think....they can be my reason to live...i can live for them by now till my family starts taking my messed up mental health seriously...but rn here at 7cups i would really have more company at the sahara
@iwantacoffee2009
I have been to the Sahara and yes the company there was nice. They didnt say much but they were welcoming
@iwantacoffee2009 hey there, thanks for reaching out.
it's really unfortunate that some listeners leave us mid convo, and i know how much it hurts. that used to happen to me a lot, especially when i was new on 7 cups. it really hurts, i feel you. but i will say that as i've explored cups and started to understand it more, i've been able to find some really good listeners. something that's helped me is is considering long term listeners, so you have a few people who know you and you can go to them when you want, and they get back to you as soon as they can. i know this is hard to believe but caring people do exist, and they do try to make us feel less like a burden. i'm saying this because i relate to feeling like a burden.
i'm sorry you're dealing with self hate. i usually hate myself too, so i understand. i don't feel like there's much i can say because i also hate myself, but i wanna tell you that you're not alone in dealing with self hate. and it's really hard, i know.
i think seeing your nieces as a reason to live is an excellent idea. i know how valuable it is to have something to live for. right now, i'm living for my summer hols in may. it would be amazing if your nieces could be a reason for you to live. and i relate to families not taking mental health issues seriously.
i understand you feel lonely, and want some company. if you need someone you can talk to on the forums, know that i'm here and willing to talk. again, thanks for reaching out, and also, it's great that you know it isn't just you, don't forget that, please. you're not alone is dealing with depression. 💙