@SailingFox
Of course! And first off, let me congratulate you on graduating 1st of your class! That is no small feat. You should be proud, especially with everything. It's truly amazing. It's mind blowing to me what people can accomplish and you never know what they are going through.
Psych is actually what I just majored in myself! It was not with the intention to help myself, but to get some insight. It's an amazing subject and if you like it, I say go for it. It actually helped me better understand myself in some ways try be more self aware. Trying is all we can do, anyway! I am not sticking on the Psych track (although I strongly debated it) , but I am so thankful from everything I learned and I feel as if I can apply it to anything I do.
The fact that you can do and enjoy graphic design is an art in itself. It's great that you found something you enjoy and that definitely can count as a fun hobby or anything YOU want it to be.
I know that life is hard, that balancing work and school is not easy. Hopefully you can use that trusting relationship with your boss to talk about your priorities & future. If you can't, that is okay too. I know that it is has felt like I am drowning a million times over and I know its not the last time I will feel that way. That is life, get over one obstacle to get another thrown in your face. Lol.
As for the grades, I think society has geared more towards the better grades than actually learning the material. Some teachers are gonna suck, some aren't. You know how it goes. I've had to repeat college subjects before and it hurt me so much (money and emotionally) but in the end I had to take a breather and realize.. it's OK. I felt like such a failure, but I realize, why does society shame when we are already down and trying our best. The studying will be long and tedious and like I said, I've spaced out on work and school. But at least you are aware of it. Use that to your benefit, so when you are on a focus kick, use it to your advantage.
I totally mean what you say about all this. I feel so similarly. You aren't alone in this. <3