What has loneliness made to you

Loneliness has shown me how I can cope with myself. I'm alone most of the day, and honestly, it doesn't bother me much. I'm used to it. I never had friends in high school, lost track of my friends growing up, and have had a couple of good friends after moving here. But that doesn't mean I haven't completely negted loneliness.

I feel it a lot some days. After losing my relationship with my girlfriend of 5 months, it was almost crippling. Because I felt like a part of myself had gone away.

I've also linked my own loneliness to my own lack of purpose in life. I mean, all I see is you work to survive till you die. That's it. I try to make the most of things, I've had great experiences, but some days feel...well.... pointless. I've felt lost and lonely because I couldn't figure out why I'm even on this rock to begin with. A fluke? Pure chance? I can never seem to identify anything that drives me, other than survival and to take pleasure in the small things in life.