it wont end

@BDRD

hi there, lovely! I just wanted to say that I know what it's like to go through something that others never have even considered, day after day. It's exhausting, and it's frustrating when nobody really understands. I know that it can seem like it will never get better, when you have to live it day in and day out, because I've been there before, where I thought it wouldn't get better unless I ended it. What I realized, though, is that there are a lot of resources, and people willing to hear me out and support me. I know I started with a therapist, which at least gave me the opportunity to explain what it felt like to have to pretend to be okay every day, and maybe talking to a doctor might be able to help, too? I know that a lot of people don't understand what it's like to go through what you are--I can't imagine how hard it must be--but sometimes, they're willing to listen and support you all the same! Please just know that you don't have to go through this alone. We're all here for you <3 Take care, lovely, and stay safe! You can do this <3

time may heal people over time, but if you're already in a negative lifestyle enforced by negative thinking patterns, things will only get worse. its true when they say the path to enlightenment goes through pain and suffering. when one is able to accept and understand their pain, it doesnt hurt as much anymore. the person above had some great ideas, there is people who dont understand but there are also people who do. you may have to open up to people and let them in so they can understand, rather than suffering in silence.

@BDRD I often have this feeling when initially my life gets better but then it seems like everything is terrible again. Some things just don't change. I'm not sure if it is the right thing to say as it is a little bit "pessimistic" but this is just life.

What I can tell you for sure is that if you are looking for somebody who will support and accept you without trying to change then 7cups are just the best place in the Internet. Try to find a listener you connect with and talk to them!

@BDRD

Have you been to a therapist or considered that medication may help? I used to be afraid of medication option until my life was constant pain and I didn't want to keep facing another day of struggling on my own with it. My life did get brighter with the help of the medication which made me more motivated to take care of myself...and taking care of myself was huge to keeping my brain able to function as it should (getting enough serotonin etc. in my meals and from light sources especially).