Today is just a bad day
I feel so bad today, amd Ive been feeling so much worse than I have in a little while. Its getting so hard to get out of bed that I show up hours late to work. Every morning I just lay there with my breath held and wait for a phone call with the next bad news to be given. This morning I found one of my pets dead and I have no idea what happened. I've only had him for about 5 days but I finally had something that I could come home to at the end of the day that loved to snuggle with me and wanted attention and could just take my mind off of everything going on. I normally hate to show off any kind of emotion in front of anyone, but today I told my husband that I cried when he asked me about it and I couldn't hide the sad face from him. I never want to show anyone that side of myself and hate that its there. I just don't want to have anything to do with anything important to me anymore, I just want to exist alone and go through the motions.