The logical solution.
Let me start by saying I'm a very logical person. I tend to not be emotional, and when I am I'm still able to think logically and do what's best. Now, for the past month or so, I've been conducting and experiment of sorts, and it's time I post my results. Everytime something good happens to me, something bad will happen the same day unless the good thing is at the very end of the day, in that case the terrible thing will happen the next morning. Today I hang out with friends, I forget my toothbrush and tooth paste and a statue I liked is broken. Before that I was working on homework with a friend, having fun, and not more than 10 minutes after saying goodbye to them and feeling great I start feeling terrible and that night people in my dorm decide to be loud keeping me up late into the night. I go to my college's homecoming dance, for days afterwards I feel bad. I go to Friday Night Magic dressed in steampunk in honor of the newest card set that was released, my dorm floods. I try going to a counsler to help with my feelings of loneliness, and no matter how good I feel before or even in the waiting room I always feel worse when talking to the counsler. I can go on and on, showing example after example of when something good happened and then something bad happened right afterwards, but I feel like I've shown enough examples. The bottom line is, when something good happens to me, I know in less than 24 hours something bad will, and the converse isn't true. When bad things happen to me, that doesn't mean something good will. this means that any good thing that happens to me will be balanced out by a bad thing, but not everything bad thing will be balanced, so my life's net happiness will always have an average below 0. If my average net happiness will always be below 0, wouldn't it make sense to do something to stop that? And since I can't do something that makes me happy and know that will raise my net happiness, it would appear my best option would be suicide. Again, let me say I am logical, and so I will not be doing anything irrational in the next few days, I just wanted some other peoples point of view. If I can prove through numerous examples that I can never be happy without something ruining it, what reason do I have for not stopping the cycle?