So there's an explanation for what I've been afraid of all this time, why I can't sleep, why I panic at night. I've been reading into it, they call it the concept of "eternal oblivion" and I guess I'm just wondering, do any of you struggle with this fear? I feel very alone and isolated because either nobody wants to talk about it or nobody else feels it and I'm insane. I need someone to talk to about this, my therapists always bring religion into the conversation and while I am wholeheartedly respectful of religion and I like discussing it with faithful friends and family, it just isn't my cup of tea. For me, based on my personal beliefs and feelings about this "eternal oblivion", trying to be religious just feels forced, like I'm lying to myself. I've tried to force myself to believe in something because anything is better than this, what I believe death will be like someday - but it doesn't help. It makes me feel like I am in denial. Anyone else feel this way?