Not/Good Enough
Today has been a struggle. The weight of not feeling good enough sits heavy on my shoulders like an unshakeable burden. It's like a shadow that follows me everywhere I go, whispering doubts and insecurities into my ears.
I look around and see others seemingly excelling in their lives, achieving their goals with apparent ease. Meanwhile, I can't help but feel like I'm falling short, like I'm constantly chasing an unattainable standard of perfection.
It's in the small moments that these feelings really hit hard. When I make a mistake, I can't help but berate myself, feeling like I'm not capable enough to handle the challenges thrown my way. When I see others receiving praise and recognition, I can't help but wonder why I'm not achieving the same level of success.
It's exhausting, constantly battling these feelings of inadequacy. No matter how hard I try to silence them, they always seem to find a way back into my mind, gnawing away at my confidence bit by bit.
But amidst the darkness, there's a glimmer of hope. I remind myself that it's okay to not always feel good enough. It's okay to have flaws and imperfections because that's what makes me human. I'm learning to be kinder to myself, to treat myself with the same compassion and understanding that I would offer to a friend.
I know that this journey towards self-acceptance won't be easy, but I'm determined to keep pushing forward. Maybe one day, I'll look back on this entry and see just how far I've come. But for now, I'll take it one step at a time, knowing that even on my hardest days, I am enough.
Hey there!
@SwordsandPens
I feel the same way. I struggle to find that glimmer. I try to remind myself that flaws are what makes me human but it feels like I'm climbing a mountain of pebbles. I need to learn to be kinder to myself and to not listen to the voices form both within and without that are constantly putting me down. Thank you for sharing.
I’m sorry you’re having a tough time. Your struggles and thoughts are real and something I can relate to immensely. Just remember you are good enough. Your goals and dreams are unique and when we compare ourselves to others we will cycle these thoughts because of comparison. There will always be someone better than us with certain talents but we also are unique and have talents others will look to us and feel the same way. Remember there is only one you and your goals and dreams can be achieved if you flip the switch. Instead of looking outside for validation look inside. Who are we trying to be good enough for? It should be for ourselves because what other people do is their own journey…..
@SwordsandPens I know that shadow oh so well I’ve overcame it and I know you can too and sits on you it weighs heavily but positive thoughts have helped me along my journey hope you’re feeling better by the way
I feel the same way,it's like you have written my thoughts
I wish a world existed where we did not feel the need to compare ourselves to others. I think social media has made this worse. 😔
I agree, it’s better to look at life from the perspective that we’re all flawed—and that’s ok. No one is perfect and has it all together. If it appears they do, it’s just the highlight reel.
@SwordsandPens Hello! Reading this post was beautiful. It is so brave of you to come here and write something so personal and so kind to yourself. I´m glad to see that you are trying to be kinder and nicer and improve yourself thats the first step in any journey.
Its okay to sometimes feel this things and feel like we are not enough. I think I can talk for everybody when I say we have all been there however acknowledging this feelings, allowing ourselves to feel them and grow from them is what makes us special and in the right path towards self-improvement
I hope you have a nice day <3
@SwordsandPens
Hi there, firstly I'm sorry that you're going through this but know that you're not alone in this. We're here to support you.
It must be really difficult to experience these thoughts at the small moments however I also see how there is still hope.
I understand that you're feeling all these negative thoughts towards yourself and you're really trying to be kinder to yourself. This is already a step in the right direction. Self love and acceptance is not an easy journey you have started and that should be something to be proud of.