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@mytwistedsoul

maybe give me sometime. actually i asked for too much. aint anymore point to struggle living.

@mikenai Of course Mike - there's never any pressure. I'm sorry things are so bad right now

You'll be in my thoughts

@mytwistedsoul

Just thought I update again. Things are still the same.

Sorry twistedsoul. I try again another time...

I wonder if it is because i am... lazy or procrastinating.

@mikenai Hey :) I've let time slip away from me again - I'm sorry about that. You've been in my thoughts and everytime I think about writing you - another day passed me by. I don't think you're lazy or procrastinating - you're depressed. It sucks the life out of you - I've been fighting it myself lately - I thought the anxiety was bad - but the depression - holy sh*t. Everytime I'd think I was crawling out of the pit - I'd slide back down even farther

Its ok to need time and energy to do things - to take what you have and take care of yourself the best you can

*sending you strength*

@mytwistedsoul

I've let time slip away from me again - I'm sorry about that. You've been in my thoughts and everytime I think about writing you - another day passed me by. I don't think you're lazy or procrastinating - you're depressed. It sucks the life out of you - I've been fighting it myself lately - I thought the anxiety was bad - but the depression - holy sh*t. Everytime I'd think I was crawling out of the pit - I'd slide back down even farther

Its ok to need time and energy to do things - to take what you have and take care of yourself the best you can

*sending you strength*

something aint feeling right.

worse off this month.

something is really wrong.

nothing is going according to checklist/schedule/routine.

i am done for.

Pls don't loose hope ..we are here to support u through difficult times.. Feel free to reach out to me and I will try my best to help u

@tanu0077

I appreciate the offer and trying my best to be grateful for.

I ask of you to allow me to... pause and think through...

something dont feel right

I don't know why or what is going on. Been calling SOS hotline multiple times for mental support this month. Feeling off, failure, pointless, hopeless, not even sure what is going on or struggle to breathe live anymore. Maybe talking it out, despite no solutions help? or... i rather type... save my throat. I duno... extremely fatigued from anything everything.

I think it helps to let things out - instead of keeping it inside where it can fester. Sometimes it's easier to type or write or the words instead of saying them out loud

But you have to do what feels right for you

@mytwistedsoul

@mikenai True and if it was easier everyone would be doing it. I guess maybe things need to be in moderation - when you feel like it and aren't forcing yourself

You set the rules of writing and it doesn't have to be here. There are other places. Penzu is one that's private or there's a few other places there or you could have a paper journal

@mytwistedsoul

True and if it was easier everyone would be doing it. I guess maybe things need to be in moderation - when you feel like it and aren't forcing yourself

You set the rules of writing and it doesn't have to be here. There are other places. Penzu is one that's private or there's a few other places there or you could have a paper journal

Guess this balancing of moderation is one of my greatest problem.

I tried many free resources online, but couldnt find a better alternative. Went back to my original platform, but i havent been using for awhile.

@mikenai Moderation is a problem with alot of people probably. It's hard to know what's the best thing to do. I've tried a few different ones too. Some are ok but they are lacking in some places. Other's start out good but then for what ever reason we end up shying away from it and then don't use it at all. I guess - just do what feels best for you at that moment and try not to pressure or force yourself to do it - which is easier said then done

@mytwistedsoul

Moderation is a problem with alot of people probably. It's hard to know what's the best thing to do. I've tried a few different ones too. Some are ok but they are lacking in some places. Other's start out good but then for what ever reason we end up shying away from it and then don't use it at all. I guess - just do what feels best for you at that moment and try not to pressure or force yourself to do it - which is easier said then done

I dont know how to reply... other than agreeing with you on the difficulty.

Whats worse in my situation is that, i tend to stick to those... that ends up hurting myself in the end. Placing unnecessary pain to self...