Live From Lunch: An Unpleasant Future Crsis
So like, you all ever just think a lot about your future and then start pointing out all the things you could have done better for one reason or another and made your life better?
I was supposed to graduate this year actually, but when we moved I got moved back because "ThinGS ARe DiFFeReNT heRE".
They also made me sign up to ttake the SAT soon, and I'm a terrible test taker so that'll be fun. My parents are also super un-supportive of me moving out and going to college. I want to go for Photography, but my mom says that I need something better than that. However the problem is, I don't WANT to go for anything else. I want to be a Photographer, and that's that. She also thinks I should do online school at the house instead, however, when I was being homeschooled online, those were some of the most stresfull years of my life for a lot of reasons, I can't clean the house and do all these random chores while doing college level work. Besides, it's photography, and we don't live near any studios that I could use for lighting, so it would never work.
It makes me kinda upset that they haven't even tried to put any money up for me either when I know they had funds to. Idk I guess I'm just worried and scared I'll never amount to anything.
@ExpressoDepressoBookHorse wrote, "So like, you all ever just think a lot about your future and then start pointing out all the things you could have done better for one reason or another and made your life better?"
Umm hmm! Like every human being who ever walked upright, I've had many looks back at my life, shaking my head and wishing I had done things in a more "proper" order or not done some things at all.
However, had I not done some of things I regret doing? I probably would've done them later on anyhow it's because I know the results that I wish I had never done them in the first place. In life, we don't get to save game, or re-start from a particular level so I think we have to learn by doing which means failure is gonna happen.
I won't be winning the "most effecient lived life award" at the end of it all. But I've decided that for me, there's a cost to not taking some risks and so I've come around to the notion that trying and failing is okay.
