I wanna run away

It's how I feel most of the times, I want to run away to a remote place, dig a hole and curl up...no advice unfortunately but I feel you...you are not alone...

@ollliieeeeeeee im sorry you're going through this. im in a similar place, really lonely, its a tough time for my family. not really bullied cause I dont see a lot of people. today was a bad day for me and i was telling myself i was overreacting too because i literally couldnt stop thinking about my problems and feeling bad. my recommendation is you distract yourself from it all for awhile, just to clear your mind. its easier to make decisions with a clear head. find something you enjoy, maybe something away from your parents and the bullies, and focus on that.

i really hope things get better. <3

Its a harsh world we are living in currently, but we should take comfort in the fact that we have each other and we will be there for each other whenever and in whatever way we can.

If you're going through depression or anything atall and you need a supportive friend, feel free to text me

Hello ollliieeeeeee,

Im sorry about how you feel right now. I guess you experience a lot of helplessness and guilt in your situation. Plus the loneliness, being bullied and your negative thoughts about yourself and that „you are wrong.

I think its not helpful to compare your suffering to others. Other people are living in different circumstances , countries and conditions. We dont choose. But I am absolutely sure that your pain and the feelings you have are real, are serious problems and that there is nothing wrong with you and how you react to your conditions.

But I think its really brave and mature to seek help. You are sharing your Situation with others, thats really positive. I dont think you are overreacting at all because first, as I wrote, your pain is real and second, try not to compare- because who is in the position to judge about which experiences are „severe or „trivial. Of course there are always things we „should be grateful for and you probably have a place to stay and food and so on, but comparing doesnt make sense at all, and actually nobody can choose in what county hes born into, if the state is wealthy or if there is war or something. You definitely dont need to feel guilty or not grateful enough.

I went through a similar setting of conditions, and it was horrible. My strategy to solve my problems were being kind and easy-care, adapting to any system, and through this behavior I could protect my mind by not telling or talking to others that I was feeling really bad. My strategy was to suppress everything because when I would permit to really feel what I felt I thought it would kill me. So I was pretending I was okay because I felt insecure if my feelings and thoughts were appropriate- since I didnt speak about my suffering. I was feeling different and lost. And then there was just speechlessness. Until adulthood I couldnt bring my self to find a listener, and had great trust issues because I didnt even trust myself.

But then I somehow hit rock bottom and had to open up in order to save my life. In my case, I found people in a selfhelp group and from then on my isolation and insecurities started to change. From my experience I think that talking to people was my step out o isolation and feeling wrong. Dont look for the differences but for the similarities. even if it takes lot of courage, but I think its really important to share, and finding somebody who can give you feedback and empathy and consolation. Its nothing you have to be ashamed of to step up to somebody and describing how you are feeling. We humans need each other, its okay to ask for help and break the silence and helplessness.

You are not alone! I am sending you lots of hope, faith and courage.

@ollliieeeeeeee

We alle have our different problems, and yes, some with 'worse' problems might wish to have the problems that you have. But that is not how it works. They might not be able to handle the problems you have as well as you do, and you might not be able to handle others problems as well as they do, even though they can seem lesser that what you are experincing right now.

So start thinking about your problems, and never apologize or put yourself to the side, because you feel like your problems are way less that others. You also need help with yours.

If you say you're just overwhelmed right now, then try to sit in your room in peace and relax for a bit. If there is too much noise, for example if your parents are fighting, then put on some headphones or take a nice and quite walk outside to clear you head.

Hey there @ollliieeeeeeee,

Im sorry to hear about whats been going on at home. It sounds like your parents are fighting constantly, and you feel like youre useless, and you feel that you never do anything right and that you want to run away.

Im not saying you should run away, but if you do — is there a safe place you could go too? Maybe you can bring this up to someone you trust like a teacher, or another family member. Other than that, the best thing to maybe do is stay away when your parents are constantly fighting, even though that may be hard to do at times.

Its normal to feel down about ourselves sometimes. I know sometimes I feel like Im a complete failure. But if it helps, just remember theyre simply thoughts. Theres no evidence proving you are a failure. Even if something bad happened, still — it doesnt make you a complete failure. Were humans and were going to be imperfect and thats totally normal. Try writing down 10 things you like about yourself and reflect on that.

I sincerely hope things get better for you.

Please take care.

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Hey, I just realized this was 5 years ago. But we’re gonna go with it anyways.

I currently am a runaway. And trust me, it’s not worth it. I can tell you from personal experience. Just try and cope with different methods.