I need to go to the dentist but I am ashamed
One of my biggest lifelong struggles w depression is taking care of myself, particularly brushing/flossing. I'm in my thirties but never thought I would make it this long. It was always an issue I would deal w later, if it ever came up. Well now it's to the point where I know I need to go get help. My gums are pulling away from my teeth and receding in one area and swelling in others. It's bad. Like really bad. I'm afraid I'm going to lose some teeth.
I haven't gone in a few years because every time I do, the workers always say rude things and shame me for the state of my teeth. I just need help π. Shame is the hardest things for me to face. It pulls me so low that I feel as though I'm buried alive and struggling for breath.
Today my gums have been pulsing so I think there might be an infection. It's simultaneously encouraging me to want to seek help and also hoping that it spreads so that I may not wake up again.
I haven't told anyone exactly what is happening, just that I need to go to the dentist and am having a hard time going. I keep thinking about calling for an appointment but I can't bring myself to do it.