I'm so tired of fighting
autoclave
March 23rd, 2016
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I've been dealing with depression and anxiety for most of my life. I've been struggling through grad school so I could get a decent job and try to finally support myself and I feel close to a nervous breakdown. I'm crying all the time, I feel like I'm ruining my GPA. My boyfriend broke up with me for not being more motivated and I don't blame him -- I wish I was those things too. People always tell me how strong I am, how brave and strong and I don't want to be strong anymore. I don't want to have to keep fighting. This is too hard. This hurts too much.
Sometimes I think I'm always going to be broken. I wonder if I should just accept it.