I just want to know what's wrong with me?
blindbob
June 24th, 2022
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I'm turning 40 soon. I've never been in a real relationship. I never knew what it was like to have my person, to feel special to someone, to expect kindness. Yes, expect. I never know what it was like to have someone to count on. At this point, I don't really think anything is going to improve this situation. If I couldn't meet anyone in my 20s when I looked really good and socialized a lot, how am I going to meet someone now? It's not just that I feel lonely. I also feel a deep sense of shame. Like there is something deeply wrong with me, or that God has decided to punish me in this way for my sins.