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blindbob
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I'm triggered by seeing couples and engagement announcements. Where's my trigger warning?
35 & Over Community / by blindbob
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November 19th, 2023
...See more Why don't I get one?
I was in the middle of typing a post. It got deleted when a listener notification popped up. The listener ghosted me. How can I retrieve the post?
35 & Over Community / by blindbob
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October 25th, 2023
...See more I wrote a lot. I'm so angry. I want to delete this account.
I'm on the verge of a breakdown!!!
Newbie Hub / by blindbob
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July 9th, 2022
...See more I just don't fit in this world, never did. The difference is before I thought I could find a place where I'd fit in, or I could change myself to fit in. But now, after living in six states and trying every self-improvement scheme, I've realized it isn't possible. I don't even think this world is worth fighting for anymore. There are men shooting up elementary schools and parades. Why would anyone want to exist in this world?
Why do people these days talk about therapy like it's so great and it's works for everyone
Newbie Hub / by blindbob
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July 20th, 2022
...See more I get that it works for some people, but it hasn't ever worked for me, and I know others who have a similar frustration, especially people from other cultures. It's totally alienating to be told since your treatment isn't working, you're the problem. Like, if your cancer treatment isn't working, it's not the cancer treatment, you're clearly the problem so we should just keep on doing the same thing that's not working. Some people like dogs and some don't. Some people like chocolate and some don't. Why is it hard to believe that a particular treatment style doesn't work well for everyone? Is it possible that instead of trying to force everyone down the same path, we research alternative methods to see if something else is effective?
I just want to know what's wrong with me?
Depression Support / by blindbob
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July 9th, 2022
...See more I'm turning 40 soon. I've never been in a real relationship. I never knew what it was like to have my person, to feel special to someone, to expect kindness. Yes, expect. I never know what it was like to have someone to count on. At this point, I don't really think anything is going to improve this situation. If I couldn't meet anyone in my 20s when I looked really good and socialized a lot, how am I going to meet someone now? It's not just that I feel lonely. I also feel a deep sense of shame. Like there is something deeply wrong with me, or that God has decided to punish me in this way for my sins.
Ghosted
Depression Support / by blindbob
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July 9th, 2022
...See more Well I had surgery almost two weeks ago. The people who were supposedly my friends just texted for the first time. One of them needs me to help with something. Naturally, I'm getting all these texts acting normal. I've been ignoring them, so they keep sending more of these fake clueless texts. "Is everything OK?" This is why I don't have many friendships. I always feel used. They come to me with their problems and I'm the kind of friend who always comes through, but I can't rely on anyone else.
Did anyone else give themselves a deadline to turn their life around?
Depression Support / by blindbob
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July 9th, 2022
...See more When I turned 30, I was sleeping on a floor in an apartment in a new city. Nobody remembered my birthday. I vowed If I didn't turn things around by the time I turned 40, then I gave myself permission to end things. My 40th birthday is in less than two weeks. In ten years time, my life is more or less stuck in the same place. No friends, no romantic relationships, no kids, sucking at my job, no home, and on top of that, I weigh 40 lbs more than I did 10 years ago. I've tried so many things to improve my life. This year, I spent thousands on a matchmaker, went to a wellness retreat and tried different weight-loss programs. I dug my heels in to try to reach my project targets at work. I tried to find a home I could afford. I even went for therapy again, took anti-depressants. Nothing has made a lick of difference. This year has taught me that when God doesn't budge, no matter how hard you try, or how much you pray, you'll fail.
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