Personify Your Depression: If my depression were a person... [fill in the blank]
Personify Your Depression: I learned about this coping technique today. Imagine that your depression is a person separate from you. The idea is that personifying our depression helps remind us that depression doesn't define who we are ourselves, and that invasive self-critical thoughts we experience often come from our depression and not our healthy minds. Some things to think about are: what kind of person would it be, what kind of hobbies would it have, what would it look like, what would its name be?
So, if your depression were a person, what kind of person would it be?
A lone sailor without a compass or a map
If my depression was a person, their name would be Loneliness, because that is what it makes me feel. It would also probaly be genderless, just following me around wherever I go, never getting off my back, like a shadow but even when it's dark it's there attached to me like a tumor. I try and feel better for a moment, and when I do I see it disappear and I feel weightless and happy. But something awakens it, and now here it is, on my back again, weighing me down like a rock chained to my ankle and I'm sturggling for breath but no one can see or hear me struggle, because I hide it all with a smile. I put on a mask and laugh and smile and let people know I am fine when in reality all I want to do is curl up and cry, but I can't even do that because my brain won't let me, I am too numb to cry now, just sitting here in my room wanting for the day to end so I get to start another boring and stressful day that is my life. I can't wait to die, because there is no way I will ever be strong enough to take my own life.
I cannot describe it as a person, but I can describe it as a creature - it is definitely a dementor from Harry Potter series. An ugly black "ghost" taking my energy, love, joy and everything that is good..
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it would probably be someone who just keeps pestering you... acts so nice but then destroys you slowly..
definitely a Tina, she’s not an optimist she would say she could major in cynicism though and she just feels alone a lot but she’s not scary, she’s trying her best she’s just being dragged down by life and that sucks.
My depression is a fat, inert person who have no wishes, no desires, no goals, no any taste of the life. That one who totally gave up on the life... Err, I mean it is an incredibly fat person who is immovable like a mountain and too lazy to do anything :'D
It would be an obnoxious, abusive, annoying strongman who constantly follows me, overpowering my every word and thought. It tells me that everything I do, say, or think is useless, stupid, and not worth it
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When I think of my depression, it isn't an actual person, but a shadow that constantly reminds me not to get too attatched to people. It whispers about how if I get too attatched, them leaving (or dying) will be too painful for me to bear. Just it's presence makes me feel heavy and sluggish. Even doing the things I used to love and enjoy don't make me happy anymore because the shadow never leaves my side. It seems like something easy to get rid of, but it is always there, 24/7. I can't handle loss and abandonment because of past experiences, and the shadow never forgets to remind me. When im with someone I love, it forces me to imagine the pain of losing that person. The pain of that person abandoning me. If everyone leaves, the shadow will be all I have.
If someone is reading this, thank you! This is my first time publicly sharing my experiences with depression and it feels really good to write it down.
As silly as its sounds my depression would be Regina George. At first seems to be harmless and unassuming, but slowly starts to undermine your confidence and anything positive. Two-faced and talks behind your back when she knows your listening. Creating a false comfort where you fall into it even though you know it'll make things worse. It just gets easier to live under her thumb instead of fighting back.
If my depression had a name it would be Hurt
