One thing I am feeling sad about today is....
That I feel that I have caused nothing but aggravation, pain, suffering, grief and annoyance to nearly everyone in my life the last 4-17 years, that I feel that my graduating class (class of 05) would have been better off if I wouldnt have been a part of it, that I feel my (ex) twin best friends would have had better lives if I would have never been in them, that I feel that my life as it is right now is punishment for every social mistake I have ever made in my life :(
I wanted to believe in something that was not possible.
That I never defended myself at work
My dad died exactly 9 years ago
That I didn't focus on my mental health they I should've. That I got upset at times when being criticized instead of listening. That I didn't dedicate myself to my studies. That I isolated instead of finding ways to be involved. That was 4. No time like the present. I will focus on these things.
That I got married to someone who is selfish. He rather I be miserable than with the person who I love so much. How do you tell someone that I want to be happy even if that man won't take me back? If he does, let me be happy. That talking to my son about my sexual life was low. About my privacy. I deserve a good life. I gave all I had to the relationship. To stop trolling me because I get very angry. I don't know what it's going to take for him to understand it's too late for us. However, our children need us and we need to be good parents to them.
I am feeling sad because , okay, this might not even be based in reality AT ALL....in fact, I think they are just my fears and self talk warping my perception of reality...but my dad's side of the family have blown me off or hurt me in so many ways my whole life - it is hard to start just looking at facts....
but...
what I am sad about is the self talk fear I have had since last night that I am going to be dis-invited to the Christmas Eve party at my father's family's house tomorrow.
I have tried to fact check and call my dad back yesterday....but no answer. I will try again today - to make sure he knows I am coming int he morning and that it is still okay for me to go....
But I am not chasing him around on the phone today and being ignored and going anhour away tomorrow only to be turned around to go home or treated badly.
@blissedNblessed
I hope all turned out okay. Sending good vibes 🧚♀️
@lavenderOrange4849
It did, it did . thank you.
It was a nice time too - for the most part...which is all I wanted anyways :P
its my 18th wedding anniversary. Im trapped in a loveless marriage with 3 kids because I have no financial or emotional support otherwise. Like each morning Im sad that I woke up...
@Sadmom826I Hello. I was just tonight that my fiancé wants me to move out and I have no job, no bank account, nothing. He wanted me to stay home and be happy taking care of things, now he says he's sick of me not having a traditional job. I work in the home every single day to make his life easy and this is what it has come to. He's been getting close to a girl at work for six months. He never leaves the house other than work, so I know it's not physical. They work in a prison so they can't sneak off anywhere. It's just intimate feelings and conversations. I'm more upset at the panic of having to find a job that will support myself and I haven't worked in 9 yrs. I'm 44 and this is so disturbing and on Christmas Eve. Ugh. So I feel your pain.
@Sherilea just saw my ex-friend from the distance. It is sad, because yes while she is not interested, she sent me a card and letter and has not responded once.
Seeing her tonight made me feel bitter sweet
Today I am feeling sad about spending Christmas alone
today Im sad about my financial situation I have no one to count on but me
i am sad about ending the year like this
I'm almost 100% sure my best friend, who I have a crush on, really likes my other best friend.
This is gonna be more than one thing lol.
I feel like I hardly know anything about my dad because he is always out to work.
I have issues with telling people how I feel when I'm asked if I'm okay.
This may seem silly but have you ever asked your dad for a one on one outing? To get to know him and spent quality time? My dad is only home one day a week so I feel like I dont even have one but sometimes when I expres to him several times I would like to go be INTENTIONAL with him, not just running into him in and out the door, it helps.
i also email my dad random parts of my day and memes sometimes to keep feeling like Im close to him.
Im sorry about the other situation too :(
i promise you my dear. You are worthy. You are precious and you are a prize that is worth being treasured. If he doesnt treasure you he doesnt deserve you.
@Celiaete
