One thing I am feeling sad about today is....
That I am Really sick with the flu and I think now, pnemonia, and it is hard for me to even breathe and just keeps getting worse...was going to go to the hospital because I looked up symptoms online and it said to go ( I looked online first because I was afraid the hospital would be mad at me for going bc what if they thought i was taking time away from real emergencies and they didnt think mine was?) but then my aunt whom I live with started screaming at me and saying I can not go to the hospital because I can not afford the copay ( which is true) and she will not help or lend me money. I am up at 230 am, sick and scared and so sadenned by the fcat that my aunt doesn't even love me enough to value my life or care if I live or die....or maybe thats just it: maybe she wants to get rid of the burden of living with her and she Wants me to die.
@blissedNblessed I'm sorry you are not feeling well. Strongly consider going to the ER if you are having trouble breathing. The copays will be there but precious life we need to cherish. Your health is important. The emergency room are there if you think you have an emergency. If you don't, the ER will send you home. That's what they are there for. I hope you feel better soon. Hugs
I connected with someone on this site (not romantically) which is hard for me to do. Connect with anyone and now I feel as if i'm attached to this person which is bothering me because I don't want to be let down. Now, she's sad because something happened and I know that I can't fix it but, now I don't know what to do. I got through a terrible week because of her and now, I know I have to leave her alone because I don't want to be in her face about anything. It just makes me sad because I don't want her to be sad and I don't want to not talk to her yet, I know it's only right to leave her alone. This post makes zero sense, I know. I just hate that I feel sort of disappointed. Life goes on though so hopefully this will feeling well pass.
my aunt told me she hates me and meant it.
It is Offical: I have NO family that loves me.
I really miss my mom - she was the ONLY person in my entire family that liked and loved me. Now that she is gone, I have no one.
@blissedNblessed No, you have us. Don't ever give up. I lost my bestest friend in 1993. The second bestest, in 2013. The first, my father. The second, the only man I have ever loved. I hurt every day! I want nothing more than to tell him but he stopped talking to me. I refuse to feel alone. You can reach out. We are not alone! You have all of 7 cups too.
@lavenderOrange4849
I am so sorry that you are dealing with all those losses - you are so incredibly strong to endure that and still fight and refuse to say you are alone. You and this beautiful post is such an inspo for me to fight for the same thing and not give up, thank you. ...
I will keep reaching out and fighting sinking into that pit of ALONE.
@blissedNblessed You too are strong. Don't doubt it for a minute. You are here and it's not easy reaching out. When we go through things, life changes us and the world can seem so lonely. Take time to learn who you are. Learn to love yourself. Unfortunately, in the world we live in, people see our shortcomings first. Acknowledge your shortcomings but become aware of your strengths. Be proud of yourself and slowly try to change things you know need changing. In the process, you may realize you don't feel so alone. One step at a time, one day at a time. I'll be thinking of you.
I just ended things with a guy I
His mom doesn
I am sad that there always has to be something wrong wether I know what it is or not. I am sad that I try so hard to push the people around me away so that they can
That I never confessed my feelings for the one and only guy I ever loved this deeply. I wish he knew how much he meant to me, I wish he knew how much I think about him, how much I admire him and look up to him. He has overcome a lot and instead of me encouraging him even more in everything he does, I was always acting indifferent so that he would not know I liked him. How stupid of me. As if someone will like me back if I act like an arrogant person. I hope he finds someone who admire him as I admire him, but that wouldn't be as stupid as I am to act indifferent just so that he wouldn't know they like him. It's really a waste of time and energy and you end up feeling miserable. Please people if you like someone TELL THEM. If they reject you, well that's okay!!! Rejection is always beter than regret remember that! And don't forget that rejection doesn't say anything about you as a person. Not everyone can like us and that's okay. Don't live in fear like I do.
That I am alone
@Laura I am spending the holidays alone for the first time in the 56 years of my life. I have to because my daughter, who was diagnosed as a child with oppositional defiant disorder as a child and who finally moved out of the house last spring, is very abusive. It's to the point that my father, stepmother and son are demanding that I have no contact with her--just for my personal safety.
I feel they are right but that doesn't mean I don't miss her. I have been in tears much of every day since Thanksgiving. It's wretched. I don't think there is anything that can be done about it. Sometimes I wonder if I will ever be able to recover from all that she has done to me, especially over the past 2-3 years. It was hard enough to be a parent to a kid with ODD; it is devestating to know that she hates me at the end of the day.
Still, even though she is awful, she is still mine and I miss her. I so wish things were different. I just can't bear this.
My lack of courage
