Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

I feel lost.

I changed a lot in the past few months, I changed my diet and include exercices. I'm trying really hard and training everyday for at least 2 months. I feel energised but more empty than before. Doesn't seem that I'm living, looks like I just living in auto pilot. I'm tired, I hate this routine and I can't find anything that could bring me some joy.

I just want to feel something I'm tired to feel so empty all the time.

So I've always kinda known part of my depression was linked with my father issues but today I know his actually a huge part of my depression. His always putting me down while claiming he cares and like he did today, he lives his life on how people from the outside see him and his always pretending and when he gets home his just a horrible person to be around

Lost

Physically unwell, emotionally drained and fairly empty

Empty , restless , uncontrollable worrying and alot of despaire and also a lack of hope for the future ......

I had hard night last night and I can't seem to shake the feeling today. My EX and I split less than a month ago. she is now with the girl she cheated on me with when we were in a relationship. It took so little time to move on. We were together 3 years. I saw her last night and a that stuff I have been fight on the inside came bubbling up. I want to leave me house with out feeling like I could break if I she her.

my life sucks, I'm alone and just don't know how to connect with people in a real way ,my whole world is based on lies

Ok well rested, my depression hits hardest when tired.

I'm alone no one to talk to no one to hang out with no one to call no one to care I'm alive

I been down in the dumps been in bed for 3 weeks just about the whole time really could use a male listener steady if possible